2004/2005

Well it's new years eve. So if I reflect on things I have done this year I can say I have done a few things I wanted to do. I reached the age of 16 which I've been wanting to do for a while hehe. Also I managed to do a few things before I turned 16 - my little goals I set for myself. I shared God to people in a different country, that was when I went to Poland. I managed to complete 10 proper songs that I wrote myself. I met someone who I'm beginning to really care for and hope that this could be a start to something special. I sang at the Blue Peter Proms with my choir. Performed on a CD with my choir which was conducted my Sir Simon Rattle. (It's hard to remember everything I've done hehe). So when I came 16 I had a party and stuff as you do and I managed to finish my CD by Christmas by completing it with a booklet which has pictures, thankyous, lyrics and information about the songs.

But 2005 - I need to do something different, I need to live life to the FULL! I need to do things like go on a diet and pass exams. I kind of don't have a choice with them hehe. Also I want to do something amazing for God like well I don't know what yet but I'm going to pray really hard for God to change me so I can become a better person and for him to give me opportunities to change the world and to be who I'm meant to be - a girl with a mission, to show Gods love!

Miracles happen....

I'll just get to point well my friend had hurt his back and has been to the hospital about it and everything and as I was talking to him online he told me it started hurting so we both prayed about it and within 2minutes or whatever it was healed and he was soooo excited and he told me and we were both in awe of the miraculous things the Lord does. It was soo amazing, he told me that he was praying and then felt this rush feeling in him, so he stood up and the pain had gone....WOOO PRAISE THE LORD!!

Recently I haven't been feeling really close to God like I normally am and it was beginning to get to me because I felt like I was missing out on all the things God had in store...but this today really got me back on to the front row I feel totally restored and back to myself again. I just want to improve on myself abit now like annoying things about me...there's a lot. So I'm going to keep praying and SMILING!!!

Finished it!

I'm sooo happy I've finished making my CD at last, i've been working on it for ages and ages. It's got all my own songs on it that I wrote and I've made a booklet for it and i've worked so hard on it and the CD's called 'girl with a mission' and I put this website on the back and it's having copyright on it. I feel so in the mood for christmas now and my brother Matt is coming down for christmas, it will be nice to see him. And tonight there is a Christmas carol service at my church and there will be candles everywhere and me and Bec are playing our 'I behold your power and glory' song. Well I better go and do these jobs I've been leaving hehe - Love you all!

Concerts

Well as tradition goes for me, I have had my numerous amounts of concerts this holiday. There are the concerts at school and then the many concerts and rehearsals I have at the Symphony Hall, the days running up to Christmas. At the Symphony concerts there is always a guest speaker and during the 6 years I've been in the choir there has been people like Alan Titchmarsh(TV gardener), Prunella Scales(tesco adverts), Angela Rippon(broadcaster) and this year there is Simon Callow (appeared in 4 weddings and a funeral). They all talk about funny situations and silly things about Christmas-sometimes you're laughing so much that you forget you're on stage. So at the moment I'm in the middle of doing those concerts-I have 2 to do today.Oh and tonight (the last concert) my friends and family are coming to watch- my mum and dad and Sara and Luke. Then there's my best friends parents and my french teacher. Ahh!

Christmas holidays begin...

Finally we have finished school and good job as well I was really starting to get stressed. But now I can relax, do the things I've been wanting to do like finish my CD and remember the amazing story of the nativity and how that baby was born to be a King. The weird thing about Christmas nowadays is that it's all commercial - I think that's the word I'm looking for. It's all about presents and trees and decorations- yeh it's all nice and stuff but that's not what Christmas is all about. I know with everything going on around me that I have to pull myself together and remember there is more to Christmas than everyone makes out to be. It's the same with Easter and weirdly enough Christmas gets more attention than Easter - well to me it does- and I believe Easter is more important because my King died so I could be saved and so YOU could be saved. I was having a debate the other day with my RS teacher about what the Easter eggs mean and he said it was something to do with the cave Jesus was put in and the rock that was moved but I always thought eggs represented new life because when Jesus died for us we were given a chance to start again - new life! Well I better get off now, all this thinking is too much for my little brain hehe, God bless and remember the true meaning of Christmas this year!

What an awesome God

Today we had the school Christmas concert and out in 24 sections, I was apart of 12 of them. One of the pieces I did was a a singing solo with a piano part. I was singing and Bec was playing the piano and the piece was called 'I behold your power and glory', this is a Christian song and we added 2 of our own verses to it about what we believed. But we were so nervous because we didn't know how people would react because not everyone believed what we did. So we prayed and we prayed really hard and we just relied on God. Then when we got to performing it it just went really well (a few mistakes) but we really enjoyed it and we weren't performing we were worshiping - because He deserves it all!
I just want to ask those people who believe in Jesus to pray for someone I care about a lot - he has hurt his back and I don't know the full details but he could really do with some prayer then hopefully he won't be spending Christmas in hospital. Thankyou! I believe in a faithful God-because He is!

Birthday party

Group Photo
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This is a pic of most of us that wasat my party. We had a laugh and took funny pics. I'm 16 now...hmm 366 days till I'm 17!

It's my birthday!!!!

HEY GUYS! Guess what it's my birthday wooooo!! I'm 16 at last woo! I've had a camera soo far so you will all get to see my lil adventures that I go on and some funny pics of my mates. As soon as I've got used to it I will put up a collarge of my party that I had on Saturday. On Saturday I had all my mates round and we chilled and had a take away and just messed about and the Friday before I had a girly night with my mates claire and Bec it was soo kewl!

5th birthday

5th birthday
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My birthday is in 10 days!I'm going to be 16 at last, I've always wanted to be 16 for like ages. I don't know why because you can't really do much but I just like the age. Sweet sixteen lol! I really want a princess castle cake like I had when I was 5- my mummy made it-but she said she don't have time :( lol!

3300

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Klaudia comes to school....

Today was really spoko (cool) because Klaudia, a girl from Poland who is visiting England for 6 months, came to school with us today. We had 2 lessons on music and the teacher decided to do some work and we never do work in that lesson. Then we had drama which was good because our Drama teacher could speak a little polish - but Klaudia can speak English anyway so whats the point. Then we had science but she went to science with my friend because I had to concentrate in my lesson because I didn't have a clue lol. Luckily by then it was Lunch (for an hour) and we found out that in Poland their lunch breaks are only 15mins and when they have a break during the day it is only 5 mins - for us its 20min. I was surprised. So at lunch we had choir and she listened to the soothing sound of screeching. After that we had English and our normal teached wasn't there so we had a teacher from the maths department and we read and watched a really boring video. Klaudia thought he was funny because he kept making comments and jokes. Oh my life then after that we had form for 20mins and I felt sorry for the poor girl because she had questions coming from here and there. She might as well have just gone up the front and explained her life story lol. Then by the end of form the teacher still hadn't taken the register cause everyone was messing about and screaming and Klaudia looked quite scared hehe. We then finally got out of school and went home and I waited with her at the bus stop. I learnt loads of phrases today which I can't spell on here. Also she explained the difference between Polish schools to English schools which was fascinating. So all in all today was quite amusing. I don't think she will be coming back though hehe!

Just in awe!

In a gap of 10mins my faith has taken another step. I did something that I was soo scared about but I prayed that God would be with me every step of the way and He was! I felt his presence there. I'm just in awe of his greatness, His unique beauty. I have to write this because we can sometimes forget the most special things to us and if we write them down when we can we will be able to read back and remember how we felt and how real it is. Not everyone who reads this will understand but I just pray for you people because you are the ones missing out on the grace of God- God is such a dude. He is like the perfect best mate, always there, always listens, always helps (even at the time you don't think it is right, it always is!) You have to have faith that these can happen and they will :D Right now I feel like the happiest girl in the world.
My birthday is in 3 weeks and 5 days and I'm so excited- it's going to be the best birthday yet- I know it :D

Stories...once upon a time?!

It's weird, there's so much that I want to write but I just don't know how. I don't even know what there is to write, I'm complicating don't worry you'll get use to it.
Recently I've been hearing some 'stories' from God at the moment. I say 'stories' cuz I can't think of the right definition for it. I think it's called a parable, I'm not quite sure. Anyways, I've these words from God about, life! I haven't worked them out yet like if they're for me or a friend or something to share. The first one God told me was when I had been working hard on some coursework all night and I wouldn't let myself go to sleep until I had read my bible. At the time I didn't think God would actually speak to me through the bible of through my prayers or woteva. But he did, which was quite encouraging. The story He gave me was:

A boat was sinking- some people asked for life jackets because they knew they couldn't survive by themselves but other people thought they were to good fir it and didn't ask for one. Hours later when volunteers came out to save the people out the water, they only found the people with lifejackets on alive - all the others were dead.

From this story you can see that in life we cannot survive by ourselves we need that lifejacket to stay alive and to us that life jacket is Jesus. I know personally that without Jesus I might as well be dead, He is my life and I am not to proud to say that I can survive by myself.
If anyone wants the 'lifejacket' just pray this prayer: Lord Jesus, I want to follow you. I know I've done loads of bad things. I know I don't deserve to go to heaven. I'm sorry, and I turn away from everything that I know is wrong in my life. Thankyou so much for dying in my place. Please fill my with your Holy Spirit. With your help, I'll live all out for you the rest of my life. AMEN!
If anyone wants to know more about Jesus before they make this prayer or want to know more after they've made this prayer please feel free to contact me, you don't need to give me any personal details I will pray for you and tell you what you need to know.

Half term...Holiday in Wales!

Well I decided to write on my 'blob' about what me, Claire and Bec did this week! We left on Saturday and drove all the way up to Wales. When we got to the place where we were staying we noticed that there were 6 churches all on the same road. So we decided to go church the next day. It was really good and we met some new people. We did a load of crazy things when we there as well. Me and Claire went in the sea and went body boarding and it was FREEZING! But we had fun! We also went to Aberystwyth and we went into this shop. And at the back of the shop there were some paint brushes so Claire and bec couldn't resist themselves and messed about with them like wipin each others faces with them. The woman in the shop saw and told them off so they put them down and walked off and then Bec said 'can we go yet?' and Claire laughed and the woman saw and thought they were laughing because they got told off and she started yelling her head off and saying 'get out my shop, you don't laugh at me you silly girls, never come back in this shop!!' So they started walking out but because there were people in the way they couldn't get out so she went and pushed them out! I just walked behind going erm I don't know them hehe!
It was soo funny! Also that day we were waiting to cross the road and a car full of welsh guys came pass and we just watched the car go passed and one of them stuck their head out the window and shouted at us "don't be nosy". We just looked at each other and were like WOT!? HEHE! Oh and we went crabbing a lot and used fish for bait - it was horrible. But one time we went at night and we caught 50 crabs! And it was actually 50 because we counted them all, it was so funny though because Bec kept bringing up families of them lol! We did loads of funny things and had a great time. Oh by the way I said 'blob' because that's what Claire decided to call it lol!

Work Experience

This week my year is on work expreience! I decided to do mine at my church along with Dan, my mate. WE are working with Matt and we're doing tasks such as designing the church website, making the Quinta video and other stuff like the Kids work stuff. It's really fun and we're having a great time.I don't suppose you call that an expereince in work if we are having fun!? Oh well! Today I got to send the weekly 'wutevur' text to all my mates hehe!Anyway hope everyone else has fun at work! Love you all xxx

Praise report

I am soo happy to say that tonight 2 lives have been saved - I'm not going to say who one is but the other one is Sara one of my very best mates(she said it was ok for me to say)so yay praise God.If anyone out there wants to know more about God - has any queries just email me and ask -I'm always here to help you no matter where in the world you are!WOoo praise the Lord!

This is the year of Lord - we're gonna see nations saved!

Good defeating Evil!

I know I've already said this but God works in so many different ways!There are reasons why I could feel sad at the moment. But the thing is is that there are reasons why I am happy and I'm so glad that the happy things have beaten the sad things! If I make sense lol!I don't sometimes!
Do u ever thank ur friends enough for being ur friends?

Flickr

This is a test post from , a fancy photo sharing thing.

Where it go?

I know recently I have been writing about how sad I've been feeling and stuff but I don't anymore and I do't know where it went!lol well I'm glad it's gone, I think it might have been something to do with the lack of christian advents I've been going to. Because I had delirious last night which was AMAZING!! And my best mates are getting baptised tomorrow and that is going to be MINT! Then I've got church on sunday, and that is going to be good because i have so much energy!Then..I have got all week at my church for work experience, HOW COOL! Hehe and then..I'm going on holiday for a week with my bec and claire-my dudes!and God is working so amazingly at the moment-things are looking good!!!!

58 days till my birthday!!!I'm going to be 16! yay! 

HYPER!!!

I like the flowers
I like the daffodils
I like the mountains
I like the rolling hills
and I like the fire side
when the lights are low
bumdearda
bumdearda
bumdearda
bumdearda

I think, I'm hyper! Now....bumdearda bumdearda bumdearda bumdearda!! It's a great song! I got my science teacher singing it lol!

I was sad and low and stuff but God has brought me to the surface again woooow thankyou Lord. I really mean it those songs from that website made me go really happy yay!!!!!

bumdearda bumdearda bumdearda bumdearda

Music

My mate did a concert and on this website you can listen to the music which was played...I love it. Well done to my mate for doing the concert!

from the deepest pit to the highest peak

I feel like I'm on a roller coster - if I'm not crying my eyes out or screaming with excitement, I feel sad and low because I feel drained. I feel like I'm mixed up. I'm so happy because I'm in love with this amazing guy and Jesus loves me and died for me. But I randomly feel sad - is it a mixture of being so far away from this guy and cuz I feel hungry for God also there is the stress of school and I suppose home life is getting me down. But I don't want to be on this roller coster, it's to rough for me, or is it? Will this 'experience' characterize me? Is this a lesson to be learnt? Well whatever it is I'm sure God will show me in his own time.

I'm not a little girl inside

Inside me I feel so tall,
but outsite I'm so small,
I want to break out of this shell,
and be me, who can tell.
Society makes me feel so young,
when I feel twice my age,
but i suppose in reality,
there's so much for me to learn.
Why is life so complicated,
and different to me,
am i the only one who feels so weird!
nowadays I feel trapped,
and I want to run and shout,
but at the moment i shall be,
poor little quiet me!

ups and downs

I know I've been feeling a bit high and low recently there are many reasons I think I haven't really worked it all out yet, if I ever will?! I know sometimes when things run as down we have to work extra hard to be happy and even though it don't seem worth it, well it really does mean a lot for the people around you because it is quite easy sometimes to bring down someone's lift when you're sad. I know because the other day I was on a mega HIGH and I was running into classrooms dancing and inside I was singing the Lords name, and I know my friends liked seeing me happy because I had been quite sad. So I came into this one lesson and the teacher was talking about war and I was like oh this isn't keeping may spirits up and because I was so emotional and not normal I ended up crying but then after that lesson I was high again. So we have to be careful on how we act around others and try not to let all our emotions get others down.

BTW - http://www.christiansinthought.tk/ check this out it's run by a 15 year old Christian guy! :D

Grief...

I said I would leave a blog about something I read so all you have to do is click on the pic and it will be bigger. I got it from the word 4 u 2day book and this is there website. It may tell you that you can subscribe to it but you can always check it out online.

Benny Hinn in Birmingham, england!

http://www.bennyhinn.org/broadcast/tiyd.cfm - The website!

http://www.bennyhinn.org/media/2004-8-9.asx - Monday

http://www.bennyhinn.org/media/2004-8-10.asx - Tuesday

http://www.bennyhinn.org/media/2004-8-11.asx - Wednesday

http://www.bennyhinn.org/media/2004-8-12.asx - Thursday

http://www.bennyhinn.org/media/2004-8-13.asx - Friday

Tiredness

I can tell I'm not use to working, I must be allergic to school because I've randomly started to build up a cold or something like it when u feel hot and your throat hurts and it feels like you can't drink enough water. I don't want to be getting a sore throat because I love singing and I don't want to "rest my voice". I read once that if you have a sore throat you should rest it by not singing and to prevent yourself from talking and reading! Apparently when you read the words form in your throat as if you were talking. I thought it was quite fascinating!

Oh yeh I have to do a aural exam at school(was meant to be today but the teacher forgot) in English and because we can talk about anything we like I chose to talk about Poland and what we did. So I set up a website with some pics on, so when I go through it at school I will look at the pics as a guideline and talk about them. So if anyone wants to check out the pics click here and check out the site.

School tomorrow!

I dunno if I could take another year of school!This ones my gcse year and ah I'm already worrying about it because there's so much to remember and to take in. So I'll appologize now if I don't right enough on here. I've always wanted to skip the school stuff and get into real life straight away, I hate all the fuss and boredom you go through. But then the other day I remembered it's not where you finish off that counts it's the journey. I would normally apply that to my walk with God but God is part of my life so I suppose it counts. Someone also reminded me of a verse today:

John 16
20I tell you the truth, you will weep and mourn while the world rejoices. You will grieve, but your grief will turn to joy. 21A woman giving birth to a child has pain because her time has come; but when her baby is born she forgets the anguish because of her joy that a child is born into the world. 22So with you: Now is your time of grief, but I will see you again and you will rejoice, and no one will take away your joy. 23In that day you will no longer ask me anything. I tell you the truth, my Father will give you whatever you ask in my name. 24Until now you have not asked for anything in my name. Ask and you will receive, and your joy will be complete.

It makes you realise that the problems in life aren't to be worried about because one day we will get our reward. Well that's what Christians believe is going to happen to them(I believe it)!

Well I'm going to go and mope around for a bit, eat, work, pack bag, wash hair, curl hair, read bible, text someone and then sleep! To be woken up by a terrible song on my radio which will stay in my head all day!

Whats on my heart...

This summer was meant to be a summer when I change and become a better Christian, I try to do it all the time but I was determined to focus the summer on God. Well I did do that because I went to Poland and I've been having great conversations with my friends and heard about some exciting things about the music band and the youth stuff. I read a really good book called the 'aftershock' which really made me start thinking. Also I've had some good ideas when to read my bible and to focus on a person a night and pray about them and then send them a text with a bible verse on. I've also been to the hillsongs church and had some great worship and when I was in Poland we did worship with the Polish people which was amazing because we were all singing the same song but in different languages! But the thing is is that my heart is crying out for more, I want MORE of God, I want him to change me MORE, I want to be MORE like Him, I want to do the work He has for me, I want to be the one who He can use to do great work for Him. I don't want to go back to the daily routine when I start school and let everything be the same, I want to see things changed in His name! I don't want to be the luke-warm Christian I want to be on FIRE! Sorry to you guys that don't know what I'm going on about but I have a real passion for Jesus. But to you lot that know what I mean can you pray for me please because this year is my most important year and I can only go through it with God!

Hillsongs...a day in London!

Hillsongs church in london alive in worship!
It was a good day, I have never been to a hillsongs meeting before and I loved it!You could see God in each one of them and it was totally cool. The speaker spoke about man not being alone and at first I thought he was saying so all you single people out there go and get yourselves a partner but then when he got into it he started talking about friendships and how having relationships with others is essential and how loneliness can lead to isolation which will make you weird. Hehe! He was really funny as well! I think someone in front of me was crying with laughter!

The t-shirt I've been looking for!

I want this t-shirt!

Avoiding coursework!

This is the sort of things I do when I'm trying to avoid doing any coursework!

A shattered heart!

Why do my love stories always have an unhappy ending!

When I look in the mirror why do I see a tear
When I see couples together why do I feel sad
When I hear our songs why do I cry
When I look at the sky why do I see your face
It's because I'll always love you!

Returned...

I came back from Poland on Sunday and I was so tired because we had just travelled all the way from Poland to England in a minibus which took about 29hours! On the way there was easier because we stopped in Germany in a hotel and then carried on the rest of the way but the way back was different.
I had a great time out there in Poland I didn’t really know what to expect so I kept an open mind about the whole thing. I haven’t quite worked out what I got from it personally like the experience changing my life and stuff but I’m sure I will find out soon. But I was touched by it. I thought in other cultures and areas that the kids would act differently I don’t know why but I didn’t expect them to act like kids I’ve known. But I was amazed to see that in each one of them I could see someone I knew. Their hearts were so pure and child like, just like God loves! In Mark 10:13-15 [NLT] it tells us:
“13One day some parents brought their children to Jesus so he could touch them and bless them, but the disciples told them not to bother him. 14But when Jesus saw what was happening; he was very displeased with his disciples. He said to them, "Let the children come to me. Don't stop them! For the Kingdom of God belongs to such as these. 15I assure you, anyone who doesn't have their kind of faith will never get into the Kingdom of God." ”

He doesn’t mean by this that adults won’t get into heaven or that children will but only people who have a heart that accepts faith.

I’m not going to get into the what we did each day step by step or anything but I’ll put a few bullet points up to give you the idea of the adventure:

A lot of stairs
2 meals a day
7:30am start
lunch at 2pm
dinner – a biscuit or fruit
bed at 12am
HOT weather
Dirty lakes to swim in
Good swimming pools
WASPS!- everywhere
Smelly, boring minibus
Children’s laughter
Friendly people
Train journeys we now hate!
Singing worship songs – same tune – 2 different languages
Children running up to you asking for signatures – makes you feel famous
McDonalds!
Football game - England vs Poland
Pizza – a lot
Shooting stars – bright sky!
Fun!
Presence of God!
Something not to miss out on!

Well there you go there are some of my thoughts about the trip if I ever get time this week amongst all my homework I will explain why we don’t like trains! It’s a funny story! Thanks for reading and just e-mail or leave a message if you won’t to know anymore!

Poland

Well I'm off to Poland on Friday. I'm not going with my parents but with my church family. There are 6 adults and 8 teenagers going. Me being one of them. We are getting there by a minibus hehe and catching the ferry over. We aren't going to Poland for a holiday, it is more of a mission. We are going over and running a summer club for the kids over there and getting to know them even though we won't be able to understand each other we can show love through our actions as it says in the bible go out and spread the gospel and if you have to use words. This means that the love Jesus showed to us wasn't told in words but shown in his actions. And as Christians we want to learn how to be more like Him.

Want to know who the real king is?

I found an animated clip of what Jesus did for me you and everyone! It's plain and simple but true and real!

http://www.newsongonline.org/shock/walk_link.html

Have we done enough for him?

I can't be that girly...

My inner child is ten years old!

The adult world is pretty irrelevant to me. Whether
I'm off on my bicycle (or pony) exploring, lost
in a good book, or giggling with my best
friend, I live in a world apart, one full of
adventure and wonder and other stuff adults
don't understand.

How Old is Your Inner Child?

I suggest that everyone takes that test and tell me how old you are and tell the truth!

Hope!?

I saw a voting poll yesterday on someone's website and the question said: how long can you live without hope?

1. 2hours
2. 2 seconds
3. never

I answered it with out thinking and said never but I thought about it today as I sat here waiting for someone and I sat here all yesterday waiting for someone and I wouldn't be doing it if I didn't have hope that that person would come. Just the same as thinking that God exist because we can live with hope that there is something better than this world. Something that we can set our lives for, something we can live for and with faith and belief that it's true. Do I make sense?

Blue Peter...

Woooo well I've had a good weekend hehe you could say! Well my choir which I told you about was in the blue peter proms which I did Saturday and today.  We sang two songs sakura a Japanese folk song and then soldier soldier which is soo fun to sing.  The best thing about it was that we got a blue peter badge woo hehe...ok not that exciting but it's cool to have one hehe.  This is what it looks like:

I'll wear it with pride hehe! Well if anyone wants to listen to the blue peter prom it's on BBC radio 3 Monday 26th(tomorrow) at 2pm! And we're not sure when we are on TV but if I find out I'll tell you!

Benny Hinn

This was where I was sitting, it was a really good view it was better than you can see though hehe!



Well I didn't write about the Benny hinn thing straight away because I had to think about what to write because what I saw was soo amazing and miraculous that I'm scared about explaining it because I don't think I could put to you how amazing it was, So think about the most amazing thing ever and times it by a million and that will give you the insight to how amazing it was.

Well me, Phil and his mum got in at about 3pm and got our sits. Around us we could see people from many different cultures, which was amazing to see and below us we could see loads of people in wheelchair's and in our hearts we knew that we would see some of those people standing up from those wheelchair's by the end. When the bands and choirs were rehearsing before they started, the audience started singing along with them and you could feel the presence of God already there in the building.
 
Finally it started at 7pm. We were worshipping and praising God all together. Then Benny came on and joined us and he started talking about how people are sinners and to become a Christian you have to believe and act upon it. Then when Benny asked whoever wanted to be saved tonight to come to the front of the stage and you could see at least 2000 people walking down to give their lives to God, it was AMAZING!! You could feel such an immense presence of God and the holy spirit being poured down into people. Then after a bit people went and sat down and he spoke about how he was going to take his ministry to the Arab world and save people there, it was soo cool to hear.
 
Then after a while he spoke of physical miracles but claimed that the greatest miracle is salvastion. The whole building prayed and the holy spirit came down and we were all singing and as I glanced across the building I saw people standing up from wheelchair's!!! They had people there helping them and then you could see them walking by themselves. Then people were brought up onto the stage and show them the miracle God had done for them. And at the front of the stage built up a collection of empty wheelchair's, about 15 or summit of them, it was like WOW!! People were saying how they had been in a wheelchair for 15 years and haven't been able to walk properly and right in front of you they showed you how they could walk and run and jump! They started running up and down stairs! A teenage girl, about my age, came up and for a few years she had to wear this back brace which supported her back because she couldn't bend and she took it off and was bending! Then one that I'll never forget is a lady came up with her family and told us that she had been a Christian for 3 years and her family were sikhs and she lived in a sikh neighborhood and they all mocked her, but she kept strong and told her family about God. And she told us how all her family had become Christians that night, I just cried because I could imagine how hard it would of been for that lady to keep strong and it was amazing that God actually blessed her and all her work about telling family about God actually paid off! I was like woow!
 
Then when people were coming explaining their miracles Benny prayed over them and they were slayed in the spirit. Benny didn't even have to touch them and they just fell back with the power of God. Two men came on the stage and were already filled with the holy spirit and needed help to get up the stairs and they couldn't stand and they were trying to walk but they just both fell over hehe it was really funny because they just rolled over onto the floor, but it showed how powerful God is. I was laughing, crying, singing and praying all at the same time it was soo...sooo...AMAZING!!! I wish that you could have all been there just to feel the power of God. BUT you don't have to be at a Benny hinn to feel the power of God you can be doing anything, just praying or worshipping you can feel the power of God and things like that can happen if you have faith and believe that God can heal you, it also depends on whether God wants you to be healed then though because from where I was sitting I could see this guy in a wheelchair praying soo hard that he would be able to stand and he didn't give up and people were trying to help him stand and I was praying for him to but I just knew it wasn't his time, God had another plan for him which he will find out in time!

I'm really excited because there is another worship thing on Wednesday and being with my mates and the presence of God praying for the holy spirit to anoint us again is going to be soo cool!! I pray that all you who read this and were touched by what happened and who aren't Christians will understand how amazing and real God actually is, people like you felt the power of God and saw it. I suppose some of you don't believe what I've said and think it was all a hoax well I'll tell you it was real and 12000 people saw the same thing I did!

Summer begins...

I've finished school for the holidays, at last! This week I have been so stressed and worried because of all the coursework I had to finish and hand in and with God's help and support I managed to complete it.  I've decided to try and spend my holiday serving God and doing things for him. And tomorrow I'm going to go and see Benny Hinn at the NEC where there will be about 12000 Christians all under the same roof praising God, WOW! I'm really excited and Can't wait to see what miraculous things that may happen. I'll get some pictures up of it soon hehe woo! Oh and Saturday I have an audition for my choir, CBSYC. So I would appreciate peoples prayer for that.

Wow they've changed more things on blogger, it's looking good woo hehe!

Christian one liners

I found these on bored.com but I thought I'd share these because they are interesting to think about....

we were called to be witnesses, not lawyers or judges.

Many folks want to serve God, but only as advisers.

It is easier to preach 10 sermons than it is to live one.

1cross+3nails=4given

quit griping about your church; if it was perfect, you couldn't belong.

people are funny:they want the front of the bus, the middle of the road, and the back of the church.

The phrase that is guaranteed to wake up an audience: "and in conclusion"

We don't change the message, the message changes us!

Opportunity may knock once, but temptation bangs on your front door forever.

God Himself does not propose to judge a man until he is dead. So why should you?

Some minds are like concrete:thoroughly mixed and permanently set.

The task ahead of us is never as great as the Power behind us.

God loves everyone, but probably prefers "fruits of the spirit" over "religious nuts!"

God promises a safe landing, not a calm passage.

When I was little...apparently

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But I was this?!

Random food

I just want to see if everyone is weird like me, or Iim just.....unique!
Well can people name random food that they've had, for example I just had a chocolate pancake followed by an orange ice lol hehe. Ohh and last year I had a tuna and popcorn sandwich! Yummm! Anyone else?

Orange

Yummm orange!

Sorry i haven't really been writing much recently I've had exams and now i have been piled up with coursework which i have to complete within two weeks so its all rush rush rush at the moment.
Also I've been trying to get my messenger to work because at the moment it's decided not to. So I have loads of work to do and my messenger is bust which is like takin half my life away lol.

So i've been writing songs and recording them, I'm trying to make a cd when i get enough songs.

Does anyone know how i could fix msn messenger cuz when i click to sign in it comes up with :

 

Click on the pic to make it bigger!
HELP PLEASE!!!

Melted my heart!

Jesus your love has melted my heart! 

Holy spirit

The fire of God has blessed me and my mates amazingly tonight. At my church we had a worship evening and we were meditating on the words "Jesus your love has melted my heart" it's an amazing song. But before the meeting started I was in tears because my mates were upset. I tried not to let it come the best of me because I was meant to help lead the worship. When I was trying to sing I was trying to hold back the tears but they all came out when I saw my mate crying and I just went over to them and hugged. All our mates came together and hugged. After the meeting Phil suggested that we prayed together. We got in a circlewith our arms round each other and started praying, shouting out words from the father and praises and for the holy spirit. People were shaking and crying and laughing and the circle was wobbling. Then after a bit Luke collapsed (slayed by the holy spirit) then my mate Sam went down. And we kept praying, I started to feel numb all over my face and arms were all tingling and my Phil prayed for me and I was trying not to fall but I couldn't help it so I was gone. Apparently I banged my head, I don't remember hehe. But WOW it was truly amazing the holy spirit came down like fire and I was speaking tongues very fluently , PRAISE GOD!

Sorry for those people who have never felt the blessing of God, and don't think what I have said is strange and weird it is something amazing, sorry you're missing out!

todays worship

Wooo what i mighty blessing! Today at church was amazing, the normal person who leads worship was away in poland. So me and paul lead it and while we were practicing it wasnt going very well so we just prayed and then when we actually did it it was amazing the spirit of God was with us all the way and lead our hearts to worship. Everyone said it sounded good and me and paul were happy :D
Praise God!

Prayer

Recently I've been learning about how the devil can come into your life and others and mess it about. I say this because I feel upset because of the devil, but there are times when I do, it's just a mate of mine, I feel, needs prayer. I know people look at my site from more than one country, I just ask please if you have any time to bless this persons life and let God touch them. God knows who the person is, please prayer, it would mean a lot to me, thankyou!

Well to completely change the subject, I'm on study leave at the moment hehe and I'm only in year 10, but the worse thing about having study leave is that you have to study and take exams hmm! Well I have an re exam today, which I kinda enjoy because I like writing about my own opinions and my beliefs, I just keep writing until the time is up hehe. God Bless everyone else who maybe taking exams especially the year 11s!

Miracles

Wow God has been a blessing in my life recently; he is such an awesome God! He has given me so much already and then he gives me more I’m so happy at the moment. I hope others have felt Gods love like I have and like how I do now. He is an amazing, if anyone wants to thank God on here please go ahead:

My choir

This is my choir at the Llangollen Eisteddfod competion in 2003, we came 4th out of loads of choirs from round the world. 

People...Boredom...Choir

This is cool one month ago I put a counter on my site and in one month 299 different people have been on my site wow how cool is that. Keep coming!
Wow I've been bored recently trying to get some work done but really I'm not in the mood. I have to go out in a bit to a choir rehearsal. I'm making a CD with my choir at the moment and Sir Simon Rattle is conducting it. We're singing Marhler 8th Symphony, sounds great don't it hehe!

The day after tomorrow

I've just seen this film and I found myself gripping on to my seat all the way through it. Here's a review on the film from christiananswers.net I don't know much about global warming etc but this film made me think, I'm still trying to get over it, does anyone have any views on the film?


 

EqUaL!

"Be very careful if you make a woman cry, because God counts her tears. The woman came out of a man's rib. Not from his feet to be walked on. Not from his head to be superior. But from the side to be equal. Under the arm to be protected and next to the heart to be loved."

Flower...I'm just testing some stuff, tell me if it works!

a pretty flower in my garden, picuture taken by bro, Tim! 

No voice!

Well I bet everyone's happy, I've lost my voice I don't know exactly what it is laringitis or a throat infection but something like that. Anyway I can't talk all I can do is whisper which gets quite annoying. But recently I've been trying to find the good out of situations and I worked out - while I was sitting in silence bored to tears - that it says in the bible to go and spread the gospel with your actions and sometimes use words. I thought that's it, so I've been trying to do it, I made someone laugh without talking I think it was just the fact that I wasn't talking hmm well people can laugh but you know I'll get you back. God bless and have fun talking I can't wit till I can sing again....pray for me please I'm meant to be making a cd with my choir next week.

I can't smile without you

This is even funnier but cute, he sounds like a smurf hmm!

Some Jews go to heaven?

It's been a good day all round for me. Firstly my teachers minister came into Christian union and spoke to us about how he became a Christian and then he came into our r.s lesson and was answering all these hard questions. I asked him if Jews went to heaven and he said some do I was like what, and then he told me that some Jews believe in Jesus and I said well wouldn't they be known as Christians and he said no there called messianic Jews. I researched this and this is what I got, "The primary goal of the Messianic Jews and Jews for Jesus is to reach Jewish people with the Gospel of Yeshua Hamashiach, Jesus the Messiah. These Jews believe that God has fulfilled the promise He made to the Fathers: The Messiah has come (Acts 13:23) "Of this man's seed hath God according to his promise, raised unto Israel a Saviour, Jesus!" Hmm still confused on it all thou if anyone wants to explain in lameo terms.

cool

It's my Dad's bday today so I'm chilling at home and my bro matt has just come home it's great to see him and he has a cool hat that says Jesus loves you. I brought my dad a mobile for his bday which was funny because he has had no will of wanting one but me and my mum need to contact him some how. I'll have to teach him how to text, oh the joy.

aww bless

Wow this is so funkey and funny i dunno how to explain it just listen hehe. "I love you"

Confusion

When I first started to use blogger it took me quite a while to get used to it and I was just getting used to it when they go and change it all. Sorry I'm not writing much at the moment I don't like random stuff, when I feel inspiried I will then. Is there any things that I or anyone else could think about???

Changes

Recently I've been thinking about if I'm ever going to change, as in become more of a nicer person and helper/server. I know when Jesus was on earth He served and helped people and I want to be more like Jesus. So I sent an email to my pastor and youth worker at my church suggesting that the youth go out and serve people. My mum gave me the idea and I think it's a great way for the youth to serve the church. I'm really excited to hear their responses. I gave ideas like washing cars, cutting grass, shopping, cleaning, vacuuming etc. Does anyone have any other ideas?

Ice cream-chocolate honeycomb crisp

I'm on a 'diet'. I use ' ' because I just sat down and ate chocolate honeycomb crisp ice cream. So really I'm not doing well but it was low fat chocolate dairy iced dessert swirled with chocolate sauce and chocolate coated honeycomb pieces. YUMMMMM!

Love...

'Storm clouds may gather
And storms may collide
But I love you until the end of time'

That is in a song called 'Come what may' which is on Moulin rouge, I think some of the words in the play/film are really nice. Those words means the same about Gods love towards us, no matter what we do he will always love us he will never stop loving us.

Weird

I was looking at my stats and seeing how people find my website. And there was someone from the united states who went on yahoo and searched 'the girl was crucified to death' and my site came up as 5th! Odd!

Encouragement

I was thinking last night because I was really hyper and happy because of God so I couldn't sleep. And I was trying to work out how I reacted to my friends. Ok let me explain. Yesterday when I was at choir and my choir mistress said 'calm girls its a fact of life we live then die we're just living for death'! well my friends started talking about death and one friend said 'oh I don't think about it because I just get confused' and my other friend said 'I just want to know what's going to happen to me' and then I said with the hugest smile ever 'I can't wait to die it's gonna be so cool' and my friends looked at me like 'oh my life she's cracked' and 'okkkkkk'. But instead of being put off by these looks I just got encouraged that my words had reactions. I'm just going to remember to pray next time so I get a last impression. :) Have a good day!

Death

Today school :(
I had choir after school today and at the moment we are singing about death well actually we're meant to be the 'angels of death' sort of like the devils angels. I don't like the idea but all we're saying is ahhh all the way through. But the weird thing today was that my choir mistress said (and she's not a Christian of anything) because we were getting all funny about singing about death and she said 'calm girls its a fact of life we live then die we're just living for death'! When she said this I got this big alert sign in my head saying !Evangelistic saying! It was strange because that's what we do we live for our death. It says in the bible store your treasures in heaven not on earth where it will rot and be stolen (something like that).

The last day of the hols

The thought, the image, the pain...SCHOOL! Tomorrow I've got to go back to school, back to the homework, the earlier nights, the routine! Monday choir, Tuesday singing lesson and music practice at church, Wednesday nothing, Thursday wutevur, Friday extreme. I don't see any point in school I just want to live for God and go out into the world talking about God. I could talk about God forever he is so amazing and cool but I want to change and become more like Jesus everyday. I want to grow and be the 'woman of the 21st century' as my pastor put it when I was dedicated when I was a baby. I want to be everything I can be for God, I want to be dead and only alive in Jesus. When I was baptized when I was 12 my pastor said that I was going to become a writer I remember looking at my Mum thinking I don't think so I'm no good at English but I will do anything for God because He died for me and the least I can do is live for him. What are you gonna do?

Armageddon

Last night I went to Wutevur, it's a youth thing at my church and we watched Armageddon. I'd seen it before but the second time watching it I picked up on more of the film for example the religious side of it. I don't want to tell you it because I don't to give it away so you have to go and watch it. The religious thing in it is associated to Jesus dying on the cross and taking our place when he dies for us.

How quickly has the holiday gone I've got to go back to school next week and don't wanna because I haven't done the work I need done.

Living life to the full?!

Well I don't know about recently because I've been messing about doing nothing and I don't think that's living life to the full. I really want to be though because I want to live my life for God and be different. I could go on for ages about how I could live my life and what I want to do etc. But I was thinking the other night about things I wanted to achieve before I was 16 (note:I'm 16 in December) and the first thing I thought of was to tell someone in another country about God. Then I realised that I could do that because my church goes to Poland every year to work with the people. I got really excited and I told my parents and hopefully now I should be going to Poland in the summer holidays.

Wow how bored have I been today

I was going to do my homework today but I kinda ended up messing about with my site all day. Any suggestions?

I can only Imagine lyrics

I can only imagine what it will be like,
When I walk by Your side
I can only imagine what my eyes will see,
When Your Face is before me!
I can only imagine. I can only imagine.

Refrain
Surrounded by Your Glory, what will my heart feel?
Will I dance for you, Jesus? Or in awe of You, be still?
Will I stand in Your presence, or to my knees will I fall?
Will I sing Hallelujah? Will I be able to speak at all?
I can only imagine! I can only imagine!
I can only imagine, when that day comes,
When I find myself standing in the Son.
I can only imagine, when all I will do,
Is forever, forever worship You!
I can only imagine! I can only imagine!


Refrain
Surrounded by Your Glory, what will my heart feel?
Will I dance for you, Jesus? Or in awe of You, be still?
Will I stand in Your presence, or to my knees will I fall?
Will I sing Hallelujah? Will I be able to speak at all?
I can only imagine! I can only imagine!
Surrounded by Your Glory, what will my heart feel?
Will I dance for you, Jesus? Or in awe of You, be still?
Will I stand in Your presence, or to my knees will I fall?
Will I sing Hallelujah? Will I be able to speak at all?
I can only imagine! I can only imagine!

I can only imagine!
I can only imagine!
I can only imagine!
I can only imagine!

I can only imagine,
When all I will do
is forever, forever worship You!
I can only imagine!

He has risen

Today Christians remember the resurrection of Jesus Christ. Read Phils website and he explains how 'Easter' isn't about Easter eggs but about God. I've been messing about today and I stumbled across this cartoon clip of the resurrection of Jesus. I also just found this clip of Jesus dying. In that clip you can't see the people's faces that nail Jesus to the cross this symbolisms that we are all responsible for nailing Jesus to the cross because of our sins. The new movie that's come out 'Passion of the Christ' which I've heard is very graphic tells the story of Jesus' death. My pastor at church has been talking about the film for the past few weeks which has annoyed me because I'm not old enough to see it because it's an 18 but I've heard so many peoples different points of view about the film I would like to make up my own mind. But in that film there is a scene where you can see someone nailing Jesus to the cross and also in that film you can't see the face of the person nailing him down. Even though Mel Gibson isn't in the film, he only produces it, he was the hands that you see nailing him to the cross.

Good Friday

'Good Friday' in the Christian calendar is when Jesus was crucified on the cross. When I was little I use to wonder why it was called 'good' because I didn't see what was so good about Jesus being killed. But I soon learnt that Jesus died for mankind it was bad for Jesus but good for us because it then meant that we could be forgiven for all our sins. He gave his life so we can be forgiven. Then on the third day (which we call Easter) he resurrected which means he came alive again. What a wonderful God we have.

The boredom

Oh I've been bored today I could of done my homework but I couldn't be bothered so I've been on the computer all day.
I've been listening to all the Moulin Rouge songs because they are so cool and there are some really kewl things said in them like 'the greatest thing you'll eva learn is to love and be loved in return' and 'how wonderful life is now ur in the world'. My mate had her name on msn as '1 day you will ask me, what is more important, me or ur life, I wud say my life, and u would walk off not realisin you are my life' when I read that I thought it was really sweet. Does anyone know any nice quotes...

Easter Hols

Bring it on, no school for 2 weeks. But the weather isn't great, all this rain is depressing. I want sun I like sun hehe!
Can anyone answer this question not to me but to non Christians...
How can people believe that Jesus performed miracles?

Where is my path?

I came home from school today and I couldn't think of what to do so I put on one of my Disney videos, Pocahontas. Hehe! I used to watch it all the time when I was younger and it didn't mean much to me then. But when I watched it today I didn't realise how deep and real it was. I know the basics of the film is based on a true story but the words she says and the wisdom that's said is so real and true to me in my life at the moment. Actually I suppose its real in everyone's life because we all have to find our paths and make sure we follow the right one. Is there any other movies that portray good meanings....

sunshine

The weathers been really nice recently it makes me all happy knowing summers soon.
Tomorrow the 1st April, that means my mums birthday and April fools day hehe! Does anyone have nay ideas of what tricks i could do?

I knew it was going to happen soon

I found out today that someone from my church had died. He had been ill for a long time and I just knew in my heart that he was going to die soon, but when I found out it still upset me. But to my peace the man who died was a Christian so I know he is in a better place. So my prays are towards his wife who will be finding it hard to cope. Thinking about this has reminded me of my uncle, who died on my birthday about a year ago. He was my only uncle and the best ever and he went to quickly. I remember seeing him the week before, I guess it was part of God's plan to let us see him before he died because he lived far away and I rarely saw him.
All these things make me think about when Jesus will come again and it will be when we least expect it and we could be so prepared for it but never ready. Will you be prepared for when Jesus comes again?

how ruuude

Oh my life today was funny in re I asked the teacher if he was a Christian and then he started going on about that he was the perfect masterpiece and that God made man in a microwave and burnt them and then he tried again and didn't put them in long enough and then he tried again and made the 'perfect' masterpiece the in between colour. To me that's a bit racist. Then in maths I had my bible out and I was happily reading it while witnessing to some non Christians and then the teacher came and took the bible off me how ruuude! Well I've got a singing lesson now and then music practice and Sam n Luke are making cookies oooh hehe! I bet they'll give me food poisoning hehe!

oh the life of me

This week has been weird, I don't know how but I'm starting to see things from a different perspective. I've had all messed about feelings this week, mostly upset though. I don't know why, that's the thing, mostly because loads of people are having problems and I want to help but I don't know how. Why can't life be simple and easy, I know it can't or else there would be no point living. Hmmm!

Today in French I couldn't be bothered to do any work and we had a supply teacher so I decided to read this book called 'shock of your life' which Greg leant me (thankyou!) It's a really cool book, it's about a boy that dies and there are 3 different points of view 1 when he is a non Christian 2 when he is a luke-warm Christian and 3 when he is a red hot Christian. And it explains what heaven is like and where he would go etc. So I was reading it and the angel was showing him around hell. I then looked up and gazed round the room and saw loads of people who didn't really have a clue about their lives and what will happen to them when they die, I was actually scared for them. But it's not too late for them yet,

I'm a girl with a mission: gossiping the gospel!

worship songs

It was so funny at church on sunday I was on the floor in stiches because the worship band started playing the darkness 'I believe in a thing called love' but they changed the words and it was soo cool. The funny thing was that I had to sing it with Matt because I sing in the worship team. I think we sing some really cool worship songs at our church. When I tell people about the worship at my church they think its some cathedral choir we choirboys and all that. I mean that is cool but not all churches are the same. For example most the churches I know sing rock songs and stuff. Does anyone have any favourite worship songs?

Can't they just get off my back

I don't want to go round as a typical moody teenager. But sometimes people can really get on your case. My parents are complaining that I don't eat properly, but in ages this is the first time that I eat what I'm given without a fuss, because my parents know what I like. So why do they keep saying that I don't eat properly. I think they've been saying it for my whole life and if I haven't been eating properly my whole life how can I still be alive. There are loads of things at the moment that are annoying me and during these times you can really see how much you can miss people (like my brother) or realise how special people are (like your friends). I suppose we all go through bad situation and 'valleys' as my mate would put it. But how do we get over it, I know yeh we can read the bible and talk to God but is there more? Does anyone know any good songs that may relax me or even 'speak' to me?

Have you?

Have you ever realised that songs, actions, movies, life everything can some how or another be associated with God in some way, or is that just me?

What has God done for you?

I can't believe I actually had this conversation with someone. I don't know anyone in the whole world that has done more for me than God. God sent his only child to save the world and even died on a cross in the process. Now we can be forgiven through his blood so we can live forever. Do you know anyone who would do that for you?

One day I would like to go to sleep early but there is always something that distracts me and I end up going to sleep at midnight.

the sky is blue....but I want it to be orange!?

a total blank

Well that's a lie I've got so many things I could talk about but because I'm learning about them it means I don't know the answer.
The conversation in Re today about where we come from really made me think about what my friends really think, nothing? Or something they don't understand? I suppose it is hard to understand that God made us but it may not of been in 7 days (a day being 24 hours to how we know it) The sun wasn't created until the 3rd day (or whatever) so it wasn't possible to have a day. Also the bible was translated from Hebrew and the word day in Hebrew is 'yom' which means a day or a long period of time.
Also if you believe in the evolution, cell dividing thing well God would of been the one who started it off.
These were some of the conversations going on. What are your views?

Friends

They are the best people to keep, don't let love come in the way because in the end they will still be there for you. Friends help and support us and we need to remember how special they are, even if we do fall out and have our differences.
You are my friends and the greatest love a person can have for his friends is to give his life to them. This is what Jesus did for us. We need to remember that if our friends ever do leave us for someone that we need to always be there for them and not fall out with them, if you get me.

Jesus weirdo, matt?

On my phone I've got a logo on it and it says 'Jesus freak' and I'm proud of it, I like to be known as different because we are made different. I mean how cool is it not to be like anyone else, to be the one who isn't a 'clone'. I don't think I know anyone who is a 'clone' but if I did meet anyone like it I would probably tell them to get a life. So has anyone given up anything for lent, I haven't I can never keep it hehe, it lasts for about a week and then it's gone out the window.

Why?

I looked up 'why' in the dictionary and it said 'for what reason of purpose'. I seem to be saying 'why' a lot, but is there a need for it. Because really we will find out the answer one day. I've always said that everything happens for a reason and with God the reasons always good. It seems to be a sentence that I remember which reassures me and comforts me when I question a lot. People that know me knows that I can be a bit nosy sometimes hehe I like to ask questions and I like to know things so nothing is in shade. So when it gets to God I question him because we only get to see a bit of the jigsaw, we only have a few pieces to work with but he knows the whole picture.
I've been hearing lately about all the bad things that are happening in my area. When you hear it on the news from places in the world it doesn't really hit you as hard, but when things happen near you it makes you think. 'Rachel's Tear's' (a book I'm reading) talks a lot about the shootings that happened in 1999 at columbine school (in America). So when I hear about it near to be it really seems to hit hard, it is kinda scary. Is the time described in revelation?

Youth Alpha

Thursday and Friday I went on a youth alpha conference with my youthworker and friends. Those two days were amazing, we did worship with Tim Hughes and one of the speakers was Nicky Gumble. The talking was great, me and my group learnt loads and the worship was even better. The most scariest part of the whole thing was when I had to talk in front of everyone on the stage, only 800 people from around the world. Ok well what happened was that Nicky said at the end of his little talk before the break was that if anyone became a Christian through youth alpha can they meet me during the break. Luke my friend became Christian through it so he went down with a few mates to go and speak to him, I would of gone down to but at the time someone was praying for me. Anyway when he came back he told me that I had to go back down with them at 6:15 to talk to him because I invited Luke to the course. So when we went back down, there were 8 other people, Nicky told us that we all had to do an interview with him on stage. I was like what! And Luke went into a little moody thing and was saying no I'm not doing it I'm not talking in front of all those people. So by the end of it I had to speak for him and say how he became a Christian. And oh my life it was scary, there were TV's everywhere so you could see yourself and we were like the youngest there. And it was really funny because when he interviewed me I turned all nervous and was saying things like 'it was so like amazing and so cool'. Hehe, but after that when we were going home we popped into a shop to get some food and these people that also went to the conference came up to s and said wow you really touched the church in there you guys are so amazing. It was really cool when he said that. I've now come back and I just want to do loads and talk loads. As my parents experienced last night when I came back and I couldn't stop talking and when I went back into their room at midnight with still more to say. My parents think I'm like my brother Matt, and they said that if we were both on stage talking that it would never stop hehe. What can I do now....talk!

Candy and Floss

Candy and Floss are my other Guinea pigs. At the moment I've got candy out she would like to say: dcdddddddddddddddddddhhhhhhhhhhhdddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddd c : thats all she got to say. Floss wants to say: b v kkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkx, mmx hhhhhh : hehe. Are there any animals that would like to comment on that.
I've been doin home work all day today, how fun. I'm really excited about tomorrow because I'm going to london with my youth group to this Alpha for Youth conference so we can train to be youth alpha leaders. But I have to leave my house at 5am tomorrow :(

The peak has now turned into a pit

Today I went to feed my guinea pigs after my mum and dad had left the house, so I was by myself apart from my mate who came round. But I found that my mum had already fed them. So I had a look at them and I found my favourite guinea pig had died :( His name is Squeak and I used to have a rabbit called Bubble but she died two years ago. Squeak was only 4 years old and I knew he was going to die soon but it shocked me today. I've had a good cry though and I'm gonna get all my pictures and make a collage. Squeak has even written on my blog.

Wednesday, July 30, 2003
Ahhhh im getting stressed good job my baby guinea pig is here hehe! Say hello Squeak (thats his name) vjjjjjjjjjjjjlkkjuuuuuuuuuullllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllouuhjo isn't my baby clever. I don't know what language thats in hehe!
Bye bye Squeak!

Which book of the bible are you?

Wow, there's a link below, I'm psalms and this quiz isn't just for christians, and what it says about me is soooo unbelieveably true, check it out:


You are Psalms.


Which book of the Bible are you?
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Chores

Last night me and my mum organised a rota of jobs so I could earn some money. I want a proper but 1. I'm not old enough to get a real job 2.I don't have time to do outside work 3. Newspaper people won't get back to me, my brother thinks it's because I'm at girl (sexist).
Today I've done a load of jobs and I've tidied and re-arranged my bedroom, I love changing my room around because it looks new and better. It reminds me of life, sometimes we have to change the way we act so our personalities can feel new and better. (how did I get that from tiding a room I do not know)

Peeeak

I feel like my life at the moment is on a peak, a low peak but at least I'm not in a valley. I read last night in 'Rachel's Tears' that it's good to question God because it helps us to build a deeper relationship with God because if you ask questions hopefully God will answer them. And doing that our relationship deepens. Am I right, or did I misinterpret that wrong?

The day has arrived

I was totally sure that I wasn't going to get any valentines cards until 12:30 when a really cute card came. It's pink :) and it's a bubblegum card and it says 'secret admirer' and inside it has a ?. I really don't know who it is from but it's soo cute though. Don't worry if you don't get any this year you'll prob get 20 next. Did anyone do any cute, cool, soppy stuff today?

Ill and alone

At the moment I could be over at my friends having a big cool sleepover but I'm really tired as it is because I came home at 1 this morning, I had a big shopping trip in London :)
So, instead I'm by myself listening to music, having a sing a long, playing on my computer and eating cookies.
Last night I had a dream, which wasn't nice. All my friends told me how much they didn't like me and it really upset and I was crying loads in the dream and it felt sooo real. Then when I woke up it felt like as if I had actually been crying loads. But the dream mad me think, do all my friends like me :(

Earlier when I was getting annoyed about valentines day I decided to send some special valentine emails, just friendly ones though. This kinda cheered me up because my friends started emailing me back saying aww thnx and wow I feel special. And I was thinking well you are, all my friends are special to me and they are all special, each one of them!

Valentines day

I think this is the first time in about 10 years when I haven't sent a valentines card, even though it is a pointless day when people spend TOO much money (I think that person knows who they are) but really its all a bit of fun. The only harm about it is that when people don't get any or they have no one to send one to. That's me twice this year. What do others think.......

Psalm 23

The LORD is my shepherd,
I shall not want;
he makes me lie down in green pastures.
He leads me beside still waters;
he restores my soul.
He leads me in paths of righteousness for his name's sake.
Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death,
I fear no evil; for thou art with me;
thy rod and thy staff, they comfort me.
Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of my enemies;
thou anointest my head with oil, my cup overflows.
Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life;
and I shall dwell in the house of the LORD for ever.

Valleys

Because I've been having a bad time recently my friend told me that I was in the valley and that God is guiding me through it. So today in science I wrote another poem:

In the valley, I walk,
Where there is no light,
I don't know where to go,
Is this the night?
Who is guiding me?
Is anyone there?
In the mist of night,
Who would care?

I think Matt was right what he said about my poems, I don't have to understand them but it may touch people and I hope they do.

Poem

'Rachel's Tear's' is such a good book, I'm still reading it sorry, and in her journal that she had, she used to write poems in it. So today I decided to write a poem in science. This is how it goes, its not very good, but I did it in 10 minutes:

Heaven is above,
And hell is below,
But where am I,
I do not know.
The world is turning,
The earth is there,
But does anyone really
actually care.
I want to care,
I want to know,
The truth of life,
above and below!

I'm still trying to think of what it could mean, what do you think it means, does anyone else feel the same?

Food

What is your favourite food? Have you ever tried tuna and popcorn sandwich its really nice but the popcorn has to be toffee flavour!

This is who I am!

I am Princess, a daughter of the King
I am beautiful, a child of God
I am what l am, by the grace of God
I am a friend of Jesus, because he chose me.
I am chosen and appointed, to live for Christ
This is who l am, with God
Inside me my light is on for all to see,
Because l know who l am, may others see it too.

By Gillian Lloyd

I found this on a site called soul sista which is connected to Soul Survivor!

Why?

You know when you have those days and you just can't be bothered, well today is mine and I have French coursework and 3 essays to write why?!
At the moment I feel like I'm walking on one of those tightropes that you find at the circus and if anyone gets in my way I'll just fall off. I just don't feel secure. Also I have a sore throat which does not help with all the singing I've gotta do, I had to sing at church today and I have a concert on Tuesday why why why?
Because I keep saying 'why' it reminds me of a song that Hilary Duff sings called 'why not' the beginning of the song goes:

You think you're going nowhere
When you're walking down the street
Acting like you just don't care
When life could be so sweet
Why you wanna be like that
As if there's nothing new
You're not fooling no one
You're not even fooling you

So walk a little slower
And open up your eyes
Sometimes it's so hard to see
The good things passing by
There may never be a sign
No flashing neon light
Telling you to make your move
Or when the time is right

Why not...Take a crazy chance
Why not...Do a crazy dance
If you lose the moment
You might lose a lot
So why not, why not


Even though she is talking about a boy, it still makes me think!

Where is the path?

My life seems to be at a low, why can't everything be perfect?Why do bad things happen?Why does life sometimes totally suck?
I've been questioning life a lot recently!
Today I was walking home, and since I was little I always walked down that grey streak that goes down the sidewalk. And as I was walking down it I found myself being lead off towards the road, I found it hard to stay on the path. It then made me realize that life can be hard and we may find ourselves being lead off the path and towards danger. But to help us get back on to the path we have to asked God to guide and forgive us and he will lead us on.

Rachel's Tears

On Saturday I brought a book from Wesley Owen called 'Rachels tears' The book is about a girl called Rachel who was killed in the shootings that were held at columbine high school on April 20th 1999. The book explains Rachel's great passion for God and her deep spirtitual life that she secretly had. Her parents didn't realise how spirtitual she was until they found her journals several months after she was killed. The journals dated back to two years before the shootings and if you read them you could see how Rachel knew in her heart that her life was short. She wrote poems, prayers and drew pictures which all showed us how close she was to God. I've only read about 30 pages and I've cried about 3 times, it's a very emotional true story.

Delirious

I find it so annoying when I think of loads of stuff to write but when I got to it I can't remember!
On Thursday I had such a cool day, firstly I had the day off school because of the snow, but it was mainly ice. Then in the evening I went to a Delirious concert. They are so cool, if no one knows who they are, they are a Christian rock band. It was really good, everyone was praising God and jumping up and down and Martin Smith (the lead singer) stood on top of the crowd. I really felt God the night, I also thought it was amazing when they played the song that I've been constantly listening to last week. I felt God was telling me how glorious and wonderful He is and how I can make a difference and how everything is possible with him! Praise the Lord!

Love

Does Jesus love you? Why?
I know He loves me :)

Snow!

Snow, snow, snow!
How amazing, it's snowing at last, I love snow I'm like a little child when it comes to snow.
Yesterday I wasn't very well, so I stayed home I watched this film called castle in the Sky' it is a great film. You have to see it! At the end of the film the girl and boy have to say a spell of destruction for laputa(the castle in the sky) to save the rest of the world, by saying this they thought they would also die, but they didn't. But the thought of them taking the risk to die to save the world reminded me of how Jesus died for us, to save the world!

Life

Hmm...I was trying to guess what the (4 day test/life) situation was going to be like before I did them, and when I actually got to them it was nothing like I expected, but I'm not going into details!
I really need a buzz in my life at the moment, I need someone I can talk to about God and feel like they are listening to me and taking in what I say, but who? I've been thinking about my life and my future and wondering what I'm going to be like when I'm older. What job I will get, if I get married or not (I hope I do). Is there anyone who felt like this when they were a teenager and now they have a job etc. Is like what you expected or did God tell you what you would be doing?

4 tests in 4 days!

When I say that I mean tests/steps whatever you want to call it in 4 days. I feel God has told me this and so far it has happened. I'm on my 2nd test and really I don't know what it is or what they are but I feel like whatever I do it will have an affect on the rest of my life, spooky! Oh, I've got a headache now, it's weird I never get headaches, ever!
Even though I'm on the 2nd day of my 4 day walk I've only realised that it would be clever to go through this with the armour of God on:

Eph 6:10-18 (NIV) ...Be strong in the Lord and in his mighty power. Put on the full armour of God so that you can take your stand against the devil's schemes. For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms. Therefore put on the full armour of God, so that when the day of evil comes, you may be able to stand your ground, and after you have done everything, to stand. Stand firm then, with the belt of truth buckled round your waist, with the breastplate of righteousness in place, and with your feet fitted with the readiness that comes from the gospel of peace. In addition to all this, take up the shield of faith, with which you can extinguish all the flaming arrows of the evil one. Take the helmet of salvation and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God. And pray in the Spirit on all occasions with all kinds of prayers and requests. With this in mind, be alert and always keep on praying for all the saints

...Now I'm ready!

Romeo and Juliet

Romeo and Juliet: that's our next coursework topic in English. I was so happy when I found out that we were doing this because already knew the story and I enjoyed it. So watch out!
I feel like my life is arranging itself now, I've made sure that I have a diary with me, so I know what I'm doing etc. And the weekend that I had seems to feel more...secure?!
I learnt today that adults still have arguments and discussions like kids but I could see how mature they were about it. I wasn't expecting to hear some of the things I did because it was really mature and I realised that even though I think I can be quite mature, I'm not as half as mature as some of my older friends. And that makes me think about the immature life I could be living, but I don't know if I should totally listen to my parents or if I should experience life (as long as it stays within the laws of the Bible.) I suppose that's why they call it life?!

I shouldn't really be writing on here at the moment because i'm meant to be doing some work. But I've the most interesting weekend. When I say interesting I don't mean the best I mean an experience well learnt. At least I can say by the end of it God listens and I can trust in God always and forever he will never let me down ever and I prasie him for it.

Alrite, I'll try and tell you what God has been saying to me but it may not be interessting. Well I think he has been telling me that to be able to help youth when I'm older I need to get experience now. Everyweek on a friday i run a Christian union at a lunchtime. We've been doing this for about a year and it has only really started to pick up. At the beginning we had loads of big plans and wanted to get around the world and stuff like that, but we hadn't yet started properly and got use to it. I think we wanted to run before we could walk. Anyway, Christian union wasnt going very well so I brought a youthbook to help me run the meetings. I was flicking through the book and at the back of it, it was advertising jobs for youthworkers and pastors etc. So i read the youthworker part just to see what it would say and at the bottom it was saying that you need experience and qualifications. So it made me think! And I feel God was telling me to start planning for my future and ge to know what it will be like. I don't know if that made any sense but it does to me hehe!

Wow, I really want to thanks everyone for giving me their opinions, it was really great. I didn't realise that people read my site! I'm really happy at the moment because I made my computer PINK!
Well back at school this week, sorry I haven't been writing it was because I had a load of coursework to do and trying to sort out my first week back. This week has seemed to take forever:
On moday I had my braces taken out/ went to choir/ homework
On Tuesday I had my retainers in/ went to my singing lesson/ did coursework/ watched a film
On Wednesday I did lots of coursework
On Thursday more coursework and organising Christian union (which went really well today I'm really happy)
And today I've been to the dentist/ piano lesson/.....and not writing on here.......and life plods on!

I spent last night thinking about what to write on here today and now I've come to it I can't think of anything to write. So (I'm not ripping you off Greg by saying this) but if anyone has any ideas about what to write I would appreciate it, obviously I'm not going to say things that are really private.