Hope is a waking dream

A quote by Aristotle.

I feel so uninspired recently - i think its the going back to school experience and I'm either so busy or so bored that I have no time to think and search meanings into deep reflections of life. Through my immensely busy weeks the time seems to drag and slide all over the place and I never feel set anywhere and I feel like I haven't achieved anything and I'm going no where.

The roots of education are bitter, but the fruit is sweet - Aristotle

Heart Broken Emptiness

You know when you get heartbroken and there is just an emptiness inside. You find yourself endlessly going through each day, and it drags so much! At home you sit at the computer wait for some answer or message which will make it all better or you endlessly stare at your phone for an answer. But neither give you hope! Just wandering round the house in search of what? What's even the question?

Donut

Yeh I'm eating a Donut btw! Which my lovely friends, Luke and Sara, brought me...aren't they lovely. Yum yum, all eaten!

I'm at school at the mo, my lovely friends have abandoned me but I'm ok cuz I have my donut.
I don't know what I was going to write on here. I have some what of an exciting week - choir tonight and I can see all my clever friends who go to private schools, tomorrow I've got a singing lesson ooo which reminds me of my additions to my list of things to do - you know I wrote that list of things to do until the end of the year well I think I might extend it out to next June:

• Pass driving test - whenever that will be :s - not done
• Have Uni interviews and find a good Uni - not done
• Pass As level exams - tick
• Music Theory exam - not done
• Learn how to look after self and house byself - tick
• Sing for the Queen - tick
• Meet Aled Jones - not done
• Turn 18 - not done
• Pass Grade 7 singing - not done
• Pass A level exams - not done
• Sing in Sweden - not done (might not do)

Hehe well this will keep be entertained for a couple of months...

Primary Ed.

Today I started my work placement. I decided I needed some work experience so I could understand the Uni course I will be taking next year. So I'm working in a primary school - this is inbetween my A levels - so it's go to school and then run out get a bus and help out in the school during my frees.

Today was good because I went in both Nursery and Reception and I did singing in both with the kids. And they played in teh play ground and near the end they had milk/water with either a carrot or strawberry - wasn't like that when I was little. I remember having milk but I'm sure I had chocolate, shows how times are slowly changing.

Well I'm really tired now and I need to work into the night doing all the homework I've left to the last minute - as usual.

In a bit...

Heads up, mouths shut

Today was my last time I'd have a first day back to school. I told my Mum this morning if she wanted to take me to school for the last time on the first day as a joke but it kinda hit me that everything this year will be last - of school experiences of course. Seems sad, but I know that I still have a lot of first things to do in my life and I know all the experiences I've had and going to have this year will prepare me for those first things in life...

Whole Heartedly

I believe when we are born we are given a heart that we will one day give to the person we want to marry. From the time we are given this heart we have to protect it so on that wedding day we can give this beautiful gift, that we cared for our whole lives ,to our husband or wife. From this we can say to them that we will love them whole heartedly.

Unfortunately, we are not perfect and through our mistakes our hearts may get ruined. We could go from relationship to relationship, dragging our sorrowful heart along. By doing this we end up giving part of our heart to each person we choose – knowing that they aren’t the ones we will one day marry. By doing this our heart gets “smaller” because it has been chipped away at [first image]. Another situation could be that we come out of a relationship that has broken our heart and we never let ourselves fully heal after. We continue to let it shatter as we try and cover up our hurt [second image].

Through either situations our heart loses its wholeness and therefore, without healing, we wouldn’t be able to give that whole heart to our husband or wife. We don’t want to give a small or eaten away heart on that day you will remember forever because you will always regret not being able to give the person you love the heart they were intended to have, the heart that belongs to them.

Thankfully the Lord loves us and forgives us, through His Son we can be forgiven and our hearts renewed. He gives us fertiliser to let it grow and savlon for it to heal.
He is our gardener, our doctor, our Lord Saviour!