Poland

We're off tomorrow! I'm excited now after the meeting the other day. I feel much better then I did last week about it, I'm keeping my faith in God and hopefully God will help me with my packing cuz I'm thinking 100 bags are a bit too much lol. Well I'll try and get on a computer in Poland and keep you updated and email some people. Unfortunately I'm not taking my digital camera so when I get my photos developed I'll have to scan them in - ooo the effort lol! Well I'm gonna go and pack and play on my phone as much as possible before I leave it for 2 weeks hehe. God bless guys!

CBSYC- at 2005 Eisteddfod

CBSYC- at 2005 Eisteddfod
Originally uploaded by messyessy76.

By the way heres a pic from the eisteddfod this year - there are more if you click on the flickr stuff. I love the action shots this year - it was our proof to ourselves that we put expression it and were enthusiastic!

Searching God!

Once again this summer I'm off to Poland. This would be my 2nd year. Just like last year we aren't allowed to take our phones with us - last year that was really hard for me but this year I'm not bothered because everyone who texts me is coming along. This year will be just as challenging and hard as last year. When I look back to how my life was like a year ago and compare it to how it is now I can see how much has changed and how I've developed and learnt about myself and God. I went last year because God told me to go and I was expecting to learn something from God and I was there for 2 weeks trying to find out what God wanted to say to me - at that time I believed nothing happened but now I can see that everything happened. God didn't want to give me an instant message instead He stretched my faith and my life and is still doing so now. So much is changing in my life, if I like it or not is not the point - the fact that God is maturing me for the future well that's what is important and what I want. I ask God and wait - He answers yet in His own way - tough love but the best love!

600 pennies

So much time with so much to do! I'm going to Poland in 10days! It's beginning to get exciting and much thought is been put in on my part about the amount of shopping I need to do because I am convinced I don't have enough or the right clothes. Also amongst all this shopping I'm still leading my busy life and somehow yet again I've been invited to another meal (which is tonight). Since we've finished school I've been out for a meal every week.
Oh yesterday I had my annual audition for my choir the CBSYC - it was my 7th audition. The normal routine for the auditions is you go in answer some questions like who your singing teacher is and what grade you're on and then you warm up, sing your prepared piece and then do a bit of aural tests which includes sight singing(the worst one). But this year they cut out all the aural tests and sight singing wooo it was great! And apparently many people had sung the song I sang- didn't know anyone knew it!(btw it was "the water is wide")

Anyway I'm sure your wondering why I wrote 600 pennies as the title - well I got fed up with all the pennies I had so I decided I'd count them and get it back in 'real money' - it was fun to find out that I had about 500 and then my mum gave me hers as well - so I'm just about to go out now and change them hehe- random but hey that's me!

oo check out- the new iPod Flea

Ooo and if you think you can try and answer some of these bible questions- if you complete it you get a free t-shirt - I got mine but it took me about 30 attempts!

Symphony Hall

Oh my life, last night was AMAZING! Me, Luke and Sara sang in the senior choir where there were 32 of us with 600 junior school kids in the symphony hall. It was for the Youth Music week. And the senior choir wore youth music t-shirts most people had a lime green one but the soloists (like me) wore BIG white ones - it was like a tent! So for the concert I sang a duet for the opening song called 'One voice' and we had all these little kids that sang around me and the other soloist and we had to walk onto stage in pitch blackness and it was soo funny because we had lost 2 of the kids and everyone was waiting for us to get on to stage. A minute later they appeared and we got onto the stage- I adjusted my mic to my height and I knew it was on because it made a big noise when I moved it but when it got to the point of me singing and the big spotlight was on me - the microphone didn't work - oh well I still had the other solo to do lol!For the other solo I had to sing a verse and the end chorus of "let it be" - lucikly it wasn't me on my own singing the end chorus but I still had to sing down the microphone at the front and then at the very end my last note I had to sing was a top F all by myself which was fun haha!But I felt so much better after I got the solos out the way because then I could sing really loud and not worry about losing my voice!
At the end of the concert the audience shouted "encore, encore" so we sang the abba medley again and it was great cause everyone was dancing and smiling and nearly everyone in the audience were standing up and dancing along it was soo cool and there was a standing ovation at the end it was mint!

So that was the Symphony Hall - one of the biggest solos I've done but personally not the most important because I think the solos that I sing about God are the most blessing and it doesn't matter about the size of the crowd it's the amount of hearts that hear and get touched!

{Ps.If you wanna hear some of the songs we did listen to believe, ok and refuge was one we did at school}

School Summer concert

Last night was the schools summer concert. It was a really emotional time because for the first year it really affected us about the people leaving. The saddest was that the pianist who was like grade 8 and played any and every piece you wanted him to play was leaving - near the end of the concert me, Luke, Emily, Sara and amber sang a song that Emily wrote the lyrics to for the song "Almost here". He didn't expect it at all and he had recorded the backing track for us and didn't know what for. I'm sure we saw some tears and just before that song he played and SANG a song he wrote about leaving and me and Sara were in tears. A special night!

Well before all the tears I sang a song that I had written called "I want to fly high" which is about revival and thanking God and I had taught Bec how to play the piano part and she kindly did that for me so I could stand and sing because I had to go up to a top G twice. I felt like I was doing worship on stage - I couldn't see anything apart from the light around me and it just made me feel that God was surrounding me and I was like a light for God. I had put so much prayer into it before I sang - I really wanted people to have open hearts and minds and judging by the feedback I got after I think it went well. I felt so blessed after - like the feeling when you've done something good for God. I remember in the rehearsal that day that after I sung the song my whole body was shaking and I know I’ve never been so nervous that all of me has shaken before and it wasn't like I hadn't done a Christian song at school. Maybe it was the Holy Spirit as well!

I really wanna do more for God because He has already done so much for me!

Camping weekend + Eisteddfod

WOW I'm tired! Just had a reli long and exhausting weekend. To begin with I went camping with my church, rained for 2 days and then the sun shone a lot on the last day(Sunday)- we all picked up some marking either being a tan or a burn- I got a bit of both. So that was cool in it's own ways, I just spent time either talking, playing catch or some other weird games we could make up or playing with the toddlers. One of the annoying points was that my parents wouldn't let me practice driving-even when everyone had gone. They've let me in previous years but I suppose as they realise that I'm not messing around anymore and that I WILL be driving this year it kinda scares them because their youngest child is growing up - I'm 18 in 17months!!!Their stupid excuse is that the world isn't ready for me-haha!

Well anyway today and yesterday we(my choir the "City of Birmingham Symphony Youth chorus") did the Eisteddfod in Llangollen. It was an amazing experience where loads of people round the world meet and share music of their culture. A funny part was when we were walking round and got followed and squirted by this clown hehe we had to run because we were in uniform. Oh we heard Lesley Garrett rehearsing on the stage where we did our performance and wow she was amazing and apparently (I didn't see) Lesley Garrett walked passed us when we came off stage but we didn't see because we were looking at pictures of us from our performance- we made some right funny faces but it was proof that we put in expression and smiled! Hopefully we will get some pics soon so I'll have to show you!

Well I'm going to head to bed now because I've got a solo to do at school tomorrow in the summer concert. It's a Christian song - one of my compositions about wanting revival and being with God and thanking him for being so true and perfect. I reali want this song to come across and touch peoples hearts so I've got to get it right. Please pray that everyone will go away touched by Gods word and love and that people will have open hearts and minds. Thankyou xxx <><