Saturday, December 24, 2005

Christmas eve?!

Just doesn't feel like Christmas and I feel like I've been surrounded by the Christmas environment for too long - especially working in next - it's been Christmas since October there. I can just see that Christmas will come and go before I feel in the mood. I remember when I was little and I just couldn't sleep at night and I use to leave milk and cookies for Santa and a carrot for the reindeer - even when I knew they didn't exist. Then when I'd wake up in the morning, at some nasty early time, I would look at the bottom of my bed and see a massive sack of presents and I'd start poking them and working out what they were. Then I'd run into my parents room and wake them up and wait impatiently till they sort themselves out and watch me open my presents on their bed. Then after that I'd take them down stairs and play with what I had and watch a DVD that I had got. Then I'd have to wait till everyone was up before we could open the presents in the stockings hung above the fireplace but I had too older brothers who were so lazy and didn't get up till the afternoon - which kinda sucked bcuz I was up at 7am waiting. When they were up we opened those presents but took it in turns and watched everyone. Then we'd talk and spend some family time together and maybe open the presents from under the tree from our friends. Then we would have some Christmas dinner and pudding and find 20ps inside the pudding thing (forgot its name). Then later on when time had passed we'd bring down the presents to each other and then Mum and Dad would give us all the family presents and that's when the main big presents come down like a guitar or kareoke machine or bike or computer. Then we'd watch some Christmas TV like a film and then maybe play some games. It was great how we spread out Christmas and stuff and spending time together - it was the part I loved the most.

I'm grown up now and being as I'm the youngest it feels like the novety of Christmas is fading- this is my last Christmas as a child, kinda depressing. I'd rather exchange my Christmas for someone who'd appreciate it more and just spend time with my Lord, my King, my Saviour!

Sunday, December 11, 2005

After 17th Bday meal!


After 17th Bday meal at mine!
Originally uploaded by messyessy76.

As becoming tradition now, a bday pic of a group of mates! Don't you think it looks all christmasy hehe! I love my mates!Thankyou for being there guys!We just need a sign over us saying happy holidays hehe! X

Friday, December 09, 2005

"Speed limit 17"

^^Quoted from the lovely card I received from Matt and Fran for birthday on Tuesday. I have now reached the age of 17 and there are more things that are legal for me to do...Don't know what apart from I can now DRIVE. I had my first lesson yesterday and it was so cool. My instructor is really nice and I learnt about the controls and stuff and had a little drive round the block. It was amazing. I got some really funky presents off my family and mates. Thanks guys!
Also on my birthday- Tuesday just gone-I had to do a concert at the town hall. I was singing with my choir and there were some really cute little kids singing to, but I had to sing with band and choir, a song that I had wrote called "Tears this Christmas". It was so cool singing it even though I was really scared. I focused the song about all the injustice that have happened recently - kinda like a band aid song someone said but the point to my song was that Jesus came and that with the love He showed us, we can show it to others.

Well anyway, I just finished work and I'm so tired and I have too much school work to do it's something like 20 essays for 2 weeks! *FAINTS* Xxx

Friday, December 02, 2005

It doesn't sparkle, it shines!

Life is so good!! Especially when you go from one day of being kinda down and low to everything that you could ever want all in an hour! The first good thing was was that I was asked to do a morning shift at work- which is good because I could really do with the money. The next thing was that I got a text off my lovely friend Mat G who is getting baptised tomorrow and he asked me if I would baptise him...we don't know if I'm allowed yet but I felt soooo honored being asked, I've never baptised anyone before and well obviously it won't just be me. THEN, I got home and told my mum all this exciting news and she asked if I wanted a birthday present early- normally I'd want to wait but I had this feeling it was going to be something awesome- and oh wow it was! My parents weren't going to give me driving lessons til I was 18 but my mum said that she'd let me have them and that all I had to do was phone the man up and tell him when I was free...so my first driving lesson is on the 8th Dec - 2 days after I turn 17! HOW COOL! Seriously you won't believe how much I want to drive.

Life is great and it's my bday in 4days! And in 4days I'm singing a Christmas song I've wrote at the town hall..ah nerve wrecking! God you're so cool, you truly bless us and love us!

Saturday, November 19, 2005

Been a while!


Dunfield crew
Originally uploaded by messyessy76.

I've noticed that I haven't posted for a while so I thought I should say hi!
Erm well school is getting hectic. I actually went away with the music department last week to somewhere in Wales. We had a good time - the food was good which was amazing and the 6th formers had a good time just hanging out with each other and pigging out on food which we had stashed away in the wardrobe. The bad part of it was when we came home on the coach and because of the curvy roads someone was sick and cause someone was eating smelly tuna. So as soon as one was sick so was nearly everyone else. Even I was nearly sick and also cause it didn't help sitting next to the toilet where Mr.Cummo was bringing up the see through sick bags *gag*
ANYWAY! I caught the flu off Emily so I'm feeling all groggy at the mo and I had to work today and yest so I'm not getting better quicker.
Well I'm going to love ya and leave ya as I go and sneeze x

Wednesday, November 02, 2005

"You're having one noooowww?"

Hehe sorry to those who are wondering what I'm talking about - a memory from last year when I went on holiday with Bec and Claire to Wales! Hehe!
Anyway we're all back to school now and last week I worked 28hours at NEXT! It was so fun even though they made me clean and stuff but it was great because I learnt loads of skills and I realised to my horror that I talk to anyone and everyone - I'm going to be like my Dad :(
Oooo and on the Saturday they were over staffed in the Home department (that's the bit I work in) and they needed people in ladyswear and they asked me - it was soo cool I loved it!
Right well now we're back at school and there is a Christmas concert on my birthday and I've been told that I have to perform a Christmas song that I've written (which I haven't finished yet). Also I've got to write some songs for my a level music - I can start songs but I can't finish them and I could really do with some inspiration for themes/topics of the songs like love and God and stuff like that so if anyone has any I'd love to know. Ooo also if anyone has a bible verse I could write a song about that would be great to. Thankyou!

Right well I better be off and do some work I suppose : Birthday in 34days!

Sunday, October 23, 2005

I think I've found it!


A few posts back I mentioned that I was trying to recapture the Christian life I loved when I was 13. Well I'm not saying that I haven't been high about God since then. But that was when everyday was amazing and each day was an adventure. And as I said last post that everything amazing was happening in my life, well it hasn't stopped!
On the same day all the other stuff was happening I got a phone call asking about an interview for a job. But let’s mention it wasn't any sort of job - it was at NEXT! Shops that I LOVE woo! So I went to that interview and I got the job and I start tomorrow.

So that’s one amazing thing because I was beginning to think that I was never going to get a job.
Also this morning at church I knew God wanted me to tell the church about everything He was doing in my life. I was all hyped up because I was on fire for God and I got a comment from Luke saying that I was especially hyped up for that time of the morning. And let me mention that I get scared of public speaking ‘cause I always worry that I will say something wrong. So anyway I was all high about God and while the worship team was praying before we went up I began shaking and speaking in tongues and I knew that the worship then was going to be immense. So we got to the front about to start the service and I whispered to Matt (worship leader) if I could open in prayer – man was I nervous and excited at the same time. So, without having a clue what I was going to say in the prayer I just went for it. I think what I said was alright – but it was all a blur to me, I was in another world. We began singing, well I tried but it all came out like a mush of words so I kept the microphone away from mouth and brought it up when I could make a clear sentence. I slowly began to make sense and I still had this feeling that God wanted me to speak and I was telling God that I was scared and He just kept pushing it. We were then at the end of the last song and William (Pastor) started praying to begin the service and I was standing at the front in floods of tears and God was reminding me that I had to say something and I was thinking well I’ve lost my chance now and He told me no you haven’t. So when William finished praying and people began sitting down, God pushed me to William and I asked him if I could share something – lets remember I was still crying. So he said yeh sure and I had no idea what I was going to say I just knew that I had to say it.

I began speaking and I was trying to make my words come across clearly over the tears and God gave me all the words I needed and I was just telling people that God has really been moving in my life recently and that instead of blessing us with one thing that he blesses us with many and that his blessings are endless.

It felt so good what I was saying and doing and I knew God was happy with me and as I sat down I was greeted with hugs from my mates and I knew that was Gods physical love for me. I knew I couldn’t have done any of it without God and that all the words I spoke were Gods because I was a blubbering mess. Btw I was crying ‘cause I was so happy and excited and in awe of God.

Tuesday, October 11, 2005

Living life to the full or extreme


My life just gets more exciting each day!! I wasn't sure if I was going to mention it all on here but it's too exciting now to keep quiet. Well because of being on christianbands a guy heard me who runs a Christian radio station online(called ChristFM) and he liked it so he put me on his site and when you listen you can request my songs (they are under G for Girl with a mission) and they come up and you can hear them and stuff. It's so exciting and amazing. Today at school we had the site on and after I left the room to go to my lesson the music teacher and my mate turned to radio up and the guy on there was apparently talking about me and my song and stuff and apparently saying stuff like I'm passionate about God. I was so happy when Sara told me. Also today my singing teacher told me to email Sony in the USA so to get Diane Warren's contact details(a very big Hollywood songwriter and wrote songs like "I don't want to miss a thing") and then to send her a sample of my CD. She even watched me send the email to Sony. WOW! ALSO, I got home after school and listened to the answer phone message I got on my mobile and it was this woman asking me to audition for a choir and that my singing teacher had gave her my contact details. It's like everything is going on at once - it's so cool and I'm so excited about what things may happen. And I do have to give God all the glory because I asked God last night that I will really be able to live life to the full! I think I'm getting there! Woooo

Monday, October 10, 2005

Quinta 2005



Weekend just gone me and my church went to Quinta. An anual event that we do and we spend the weekend playing games, going out, quizes, worship, scavenger hunt etc. We had such a good time. Like last year the youth were put in another building away from the adults and children - we were loud and crazy yet some individuals not naming anyone (sara!) were boring and went to bed at a reasonable time whereas me and Claire were awake sneeking around and being naughty (hehe). The sunday was the best when we had a quiz including a scavenger hunt and the guy running it said that we were going to need a range of ages in the team and that all the youth shouldn't go together - we decided against that but added my mummy in just for wisdom along with Terry. One of the items we had to get on the scavenger hunt was a cheeseburger from McDonalds - we were in the middle of no where but Cathy still got in her car and drove to the nearest McDs to get one hehe. It was worth a lot of points and i should think so. Well anyway we had loads of fun getting random things and we had pretty much everything. When it got to the marking of scores it came out as the teenagers winning woooo haha! Who says teenagers aren't just great!Anyway I can't be bothered to write anymore - I'm way too tired after the weekend and the 100hours gig last night (who were mint btw) so I'll catch up with you guys another time - btw check the Flickr for more fun and fascinating photos (I'm doing them now sara!!)
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Friday, September 30, 2005

Eventful times


Don't ask why I called the blog that.
Life has been interesting recently. I've really been trying to think about my Christian walk and trying to recapture the excitement that I had as a Christian when I was about 13. At that age I had just begun secondary school and most people knew I was a Christian and I would have endless discussions with them about Christianity. Now I'm older and I talk to older people I find it harder because they take the "intellectual" argument and stick their heels in. But I still love them all and I just pray that God will soften their hearts. One thing my Dad said was "that sometimes when you open your mouth that God puts the words in". This really encouraged me becuase it gave me more confidence.
I'm going to need confidence tomorrow though. I'm singing in this harvest concert (whatever it is) and I'm singing some of my compositions and ones about God. I know I've sung at it at school but at least there I know the people. But here I don't know anyone. And afterwards my singing teacher told me I could sell my cds there. How scary is that!! I'll update you on how it goes - but I better go now and carry on burning my cds ah!

Saturday, September 24, 2005

Too much work


Wow last week I was bored because I didn't have enough work and now I have too much. I have 4 essays to write for Monday. These teachers are impossible.
Anyway this week I've been in an Opera called "Carmen". I thought it wasn't going to be any good but it's actually really good I loved it. My choir had to play French streetboys and had to take the mick out of soldiers and they would come and tell us off and we would have to pull faces and stuff - it was soo fun yet embarrassing. Oh well.
Another exciting thing that's going on is that I found this website called Christianbands and I've signed on and put one of my compositions on their. If you want to have a look go on my page.
Well I better go to bed now I'm really tired after tonight and I have church in the morning and I'm singing woo!

Tuesday, September 20, 2005

Greg, a rock?!


Greg?!
Originally uploaded by
messyessy76.

Don't worry there is a reason for this picture- I wouldn't normally put up pics to scare people. Ok, well last Friday I, Luke, Bec and Greg went to the cinema to see "Pride and Prejudice". The boys were questioning on why they came and were convinced it wasn't going to be good. When we were coming home we were speaking about our thoughts of the film and Becky was blabbering on about how the bbc version was better bla bla and I was saying how great it was and how I was in tears. This comment took a shock to the lads and were like "how could you cry to that?!" and I said cause it was so romantic and beautiful. Then about 1am I got a text from greg (btw at this point me and Bec were having a sleepover and greg and luke were), so I got this text and I was like ok whys he texting me at this time and he admitted that he had "wet eyes" as he called it during the film, he felt he had to tell me instead of luke telling me. So these pictures may make him look like a strong heartless cold man - but inside you will find a warm-hearted baby- awww Greg!

Monday, September 12, 2005

First experience of 6th form


Well after my first week in 6th form I feel that I can make a fairer judgment than I was going to after my first day. I have found it to be kinda boring because I've had about 2 or 3 hours of frees per day. And I know I will be wanting more as soon as I've got work but at the moment it kinda seems easy and I'm getting a bit bored.
One exciting thing is that I've been made a music prefect along with Luke, Emily and Sara. I now get to lead the choirs and orchestras and stuff and organise all the music and it means I can get out of the sports afternoon at school- woo!
Well I start psychology tomorrow because it's an evening class and I get it once a week and in one lesson we have to fit in 5 hours of work - how people pass this class I will never know. I've decided that I want to get straight As for Alevel, I feel like I've got more confidence now after my GCSEs and I know I can push myself. So I better go now and start working lol!!

Sunday, September 04, 2005

End of the summer!


I suppose I should tell you what happened to me at soul survivor, it was just an awesome 5days and I really want to go next time. I suppose in my view the first 4 days were fairly normal- I was kind of expecting the deep end from the beginning if you get me. I then learnt from this that it wasn't where I was that gave me the depth of God, but me and we were reminded that it doesn't matter where we are because God is the same everywhere, as obvious as that is we still kind of need those reminders.

Day 5 - seriously if you scare easy with God stuff just don't read this paragraph!
OK, well day 5 - the day we were leaving. The group split in the evening so those who were tired could go home and the rest who wanted to stay for the last meeting could. I stayed and Gods spirit fell! It all started in the meeting when Mike P (guy speaking-cool dude) realised that there was such a presence of Gods spirit in the room and he decided to not preach at all and just let Gods spirit fall. So I was just standing there, arms out, hands open waiting for God. I was there for a bit just chatting along with God and sensing his presence resting on me and I was like well that’s great God but I want more, I want to be saturated!! So the next thing I knew was that I felt several hands on me praying (no idea who-but thanks) and I felt these random electric shock things that I had experienced previous that week and I knew it was the Holy spirit in me. So here I was getting excited- but I just wanted more! Well the next thing I knew I was on the floor, flat out. I was now numb from head to toe and I had that sensation of pins and needles all over me, like even on my chin and stuff-odd! I then tried to move my hand and realised I was paralysed – I couldn’t move at all and the only thing I could do was breathe and by this point apparently I was hyperventilating and scaring my mates – hehe! And through the breathing I was using all my strength to cry out “Lord” and as well as feeling slightly scared I was so excited at the same time it was just awesome and I’m sure everyone would think ahh no thanks. Then beside me I could hear this mans voice just asking for more and more and I was there thinking ‘you know what I’m ok!’. Then I remember the pins and needles fading off but my left arm was still completely paralysed. I then thought I was going deaf as all sound around me faded out and I felt like my ears were inside seashells of something. But then to my amazement I started seeing pictures of what I believe was heaven. I saw thousands of people, maybe angels praising God and all their faces were identical and I was travelling down loads of corridors – just to feel the hugeness of heaven and I could see so many rooms, just to show that they are waiting for us. I’m just in awe of how amazing God is. My hearing came back and I spent a while trying to move my hand and trying to move my fingers. The movement soon came back and I thought it was now time to get off the wet floor – pointing out that on that day it poured down and the place where we were sitting leaked so was really wet. I sat up and went all light headed and collapsed down again. I felt so weak; I couldn’t hold my body up to sit let alone stand. I lay there helpless for a bit as Becky and Beth were mothering me. I was wrapped round with jumpers and was helped to sit up, took a few attempts but I got there. The next step was to stand – now that took a while. For some reason my legs were really weak and I just couldn’t keep balance. Luckily we were sitting next to a pole so I stood up and held myself to the pole. I got so desperate to jump when songs like ‘Dancing generation’ came on. I tried but lamely fell down again. I got to a point where I was like ok I don’t care if I fall because I’ll be falling to God one day, so when ‘I will dance I will sing’ came on I decided that I WILL dance for the King, even though I’d look stupid – David didn’t care how stupid he looked dancing to God when he wrote the song in Psalms. As soon as I was there dancing and jumping I seemed to be fine and it was like I was healed while praising God – it was awesome and it made me want to dance more.

That night I was taught so much like how much I take for granted and if I’m thinking about it God is still teaching me this because I haven’t been able to sing for the past 2 weeks because I’ve had such a sore throat that I could just about talk but singing was a no go. And if you know me you will know that I love singing and I do it everyday!
Anyway – summer’s ended and as well as feeling sad about going back to school and starting 6th form I’m kinda happy too because I feel like I can make a more of a difference to the world if I’m in it! Because I am a history maker!

Tuesday, August 30, 2005

Yesterday's day on the beach!


day on the beach - yay sand!
Originally uploaded by messyessy76.

Because of my hectic life hehe I haven't had the chance to go to the beach in ages because of all the holidays that I've been on this summer never went near the coast. So yesterday my mummy and daddy took me and my mates to the seaside...yay! We went about a mile up the road from Barmouth (when my parents said north or Barmouth I thought they meant about 20miles) oh well lol! Anyway we were really unsure about the weather because the weather forecast thing had a black cloud so we were like hmmm. But because my parents always seem to have the sun follow them where ever they go, we had the hottest day (better than poland-thats not really saying much but you know). I was soo pleased when I saw myself in the mirror and saw the burning glow on my face-I had caught the sun and I'm not letting it go woo! The worst part of the whole thing was that I had this stupid cold/flu thing and I was sneezing and coughing here there and everywhere - still being as stupid and crazy as I am I still went in the sea and had a good time. I am now suffering the consequences by feeling worse than I did. Oh well it was worth getting a tan and having fun! Lol btw we played in the sand, dug a hole, played jump over the waves and played catch the ball in the sea and while throwing it try and splash the person receiving it hehe and we ran down sandunes. We had a funky day. Anyway I'm going to go and snuggle up on the sofa with some lemsip and watch some sort of chick flick.

Thursday, August 25, 2005

GCSE results day


Well I can't hide my excitement, I'm soo happy with what I got and the best thing was that I passed Maths with a B!I so thought I was going to fail but God was there 110% for me and helped me and kept me calm. I'm so glad to say that I passed all of them and I don't mind telling you them - 2 A*, 4 As and 4 Bs!!!! I was jumping and screaming when I saw them and I even tried to go home crying and tell my mum that I had failed maths but as soon as I saw her I burst out laughing (ruined that plan) hehe. I want to say well done to everyone who got their results and I want to praise God because I know that I wouldn't have been able to get them if it weren't for God. Yesterday I was reminded that I shouldn't worry about the future because God is already there!!!

Monday, August 15, 2005

Home at last!


Well I don't really want to write about what we did everyday because it will take forever to write and might be boring to read so here’s a summary:

journey to Poland, Lodz, zoo, tram adventures, sleep, train to krakow+to Myskow(no getting lost this year), salt mine, bowling, shopping, BBQs, Worship+prayer, castle ruins, climbing down mountain (scary!), annual fottie match 5-2 (to Poland), saw catholic church(and 1000s of Catholics parading towards it and had been walking for a few days, signing of tops on last day, jumping fish(ha-ha), journey home(tiring).

Well there are a few words there that will give you an idea about what happened out there. But what I will explain is the journey home. There always has to be a Poland "adventure" as we call it. Last year was the train journey, this year the adventure home.

What was meant to happen was that we left the hotel (Poland) at 8am on Saturday and drive continually with no hotel stop all the way to Birmingham (England) and stop at Auschwitz on the way back. Also we should have been on the ferry back at 8am on Sunday and arrived home about 1pm in the afternoon.
Ok, this is what actually happened. We left “Hotel Kinga” at 8:30am and safely got to Auschwitz at 10am ready for the tour. We finished at 12pm and waited for Klaudia’s Dad to arrive because he was picking up Klaudia’s brother (Mati) and Iza(translator) and Margaret and Brian (members of my church) so to take them to Krakow because they weren’t coming back with us. He arrived at 1pm but some of the guys had wandered off so we had to wait 30mins for them to get back and then the minibus driver wandered off and we then had to wait around for them ( so we were waiting around for an hour or so). Finally everyone was back and we said goodbye to them and got in the minibus ready to carry on home. The time now was about 2ish. We were already feeling yucky and we still had another day to go. I can’t remember much between leaving Auschwitz and the night time – I think I went to sleep. I remember going to McDonalds for lunch and that’s it. I don’t remember dinner. Well anyway everything was fine and between 11pm and 4am I had to be awake so I could navigate through Germany with Klaudia. I didn’t have enough sleep before it – I think I only slept an hour or 2 that day. And I had to keep eating chocolate to wake myself up – that’s all I had hehe. After my shift I went to the back again and tried to sleep it was so uncomfortable and it kept raining and the minibus had leaks everywhere. We were now wet, sweating and a mess. I woke up at about 6am and learnt that we were still in Germany and that we were about 2 hours behind because of the weather and the traffic. I went back to sleep and then was woken by a lot of people speaking and the slowing down of the minibus. We then had to pull over to the hard shoulder because the trailer had been bouncing up and down. So we stopped to check if the trailer was ok. It looked fine so we went to go and start the engine and it wouldn’t start and we kept trying but we couldn’t start it. They then told us to all get out the minibus and to wrap warm – it was 9am and luckily it wasn’t raining. We learnt that the tape thing in the engine or something had broken(don’t ask me about it lol) so we had to get it fixed. So Matt (leader) phoned the RAC (lets point out that it was a Sunday, we were in Belgium now and apparently it was a bank holiday). We waited around in the cold for an hour I think with sleeping bags wrapped around us hehe. I was really desperate for a wee but I didn’t go because there were too many stinging nettles (oh sorry there was like a wood beside the motorway). Finally and randomly a policewoman came and asked us what had happened and we told her we had phoned the RAC, amazingly the RAC then turned up (as soon as the police get involved everything speeds up hmm). At this point we had no idea what was going to happen to us, the minibus and the trailer. Luckily there was a service station 10miles up the road and told the driver of the car (that had also came to Poland with us) to fill it up and take them up to the services and everyone else would have some sort of transport to get up there and they would pull the minibus up there to and sort if out there. I was told to get in the car with Sara and some others and we ventured up to the services. But it wasn’t labelled very well so we missed the entrance and had to turn round onto the other side and go all the way down the opposite road so to find another turn round to go back up and try again. But that took us half an hour to find the turn round road – hectic! Finally we got to the service station and met the others. The minibus was parked in the lorry area and everyone was inside eating breakfast. After 3hours of waiting the truck to take the minibus to Calais arrived but we now had no transport to get to Calais. Some taxis were meant to turn up but they didn’t. So we waited again for about half an hour and then a minibus arrived to take us – it was way better than our hunk of junk lol. It took us about 2hours to get to the Ferry port. We found our minibus waiting for us there so we went to check in. We had to go on as foot passengers because the taxi wasn’t coming with us and we had to get some transport on the other side. So we went to check in and the woman we went to went mad before we said anything. What we were trying to do was to get 15 people on as foot passengers and to get the minibus on while being on top of this truck thing. But she just started shouting before Matt could even explain the situation. I can’t quite remember what she was saying but practically it was like you’re not allowed to come on until the minibus was fixed (that would have took days) and she was telling us to go away. She even told Matt that he was being rude when he wasn’t even close to it. Matt was there trying to reason with her and she was shouting like mad at him. At the end Matt just said excuse me I’m the customer and you are treating me like a piece of “poo”. And he went and found the manager. We then were told to get out the bus and this crazy French man came up and was yelling as well (what’s with arrogant French people – we had done nout wrong and were being really reasonable). He then told us to get in the bus again (ah) and we were dumped outside the deport area. One member stayed with the minibus and went on the ferry with it and we went on as foot passengers. But the ferry didn’t leave for another 2hours and so we had to wait in the waiting area. Finally we got in but unsure if the minibus got on ok. It was now 6pm as the ferry left and we found Ben (who stayed with bus) and he said it was ok. There was such a sense of relief then. We then sat down and rested as we sailed across to England we got there at 8pm (it took a while) and we had to wait at a petrol station outside the ferry port for the minibus to load onto a different trucker thing and we had to wait for the hire cars. Another hour of waiting! Finally we were in cars and heading towards home. We arrived home at 12:30am. We were physically and emotionally drained and 12 hours behind schedule! – It was worse than the train situation last year!

I’m not home and really tired and I have loads of washing to do before soul survivor next week. Good job we had God on our side – it could have been worse!

Wednesday, August 03, 2005

hello from poland!


Oml we're in poland - at last!it has been so much fun, it's really hot and yesterday we went to the zoo!me and Luke ventured to the shops on the tram and we nearly got on the wrong one - luickly i read the map again hehe. Well I would to be here bashing this slow annoying keyboard all day but we have to decide what to eat tonight. Oooo and if anyone knows me well out there I'm actually eating polish food! (I'm normlly a fussy eater thats why hehehe) - God is working and we are living and working for him!God bless xxx

Thursday, July 28, 2005

Poland


We're off tomorrow! I'm excited now after the meeting the other day. I feel much better then I did last week about it, I'm keeping my faith in God and hopefully God will help me with my packing cuz I'm thinking 100 bags are a bit too much lol. Well I'll try and get on a computer in Poland and keep you updated and email some people. Unfortunately I'm not taking my digital camera so when I get my photos developed I'll have to scan them in - ooo the effort lol! Well I'm gonna go and pack and play on my phone as much as possible before I leave it for 2 weeks hehe. God bless guys!

Wednesday, July 27, 2005

CBSYC- at 2005 Eisteddfod


CBSYC- at 2005 Eisteddfod
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By the way heres a pic from the eisteddfod this year - there are more if you click on the flickr stuff. I love the action shots this year - it was our proof to ourselves that we put expression it and were enthusiastic!

Tuesday, July 26, 2005

Searching God!


Once again this summer I'm off to Poland. This would be my 2nd year. Just like last year we aren't allowed to take our phones with us - last year that was really hard for me but this year I'm not bothered because everyone who texts me is coming along. This year will be just as challenging and hard as last year. When I look back to how my life was like a year ago and compare it to how it is now I can see how much has changed and how I've developed and learnt about myself and God. I went last year because God told me to go and I was expecting to learn something from God and I was there for 2 weeks trying to find out what God wanted to say to me - at that time I believed nothing happened but now I can see that everything happened. God didn't want to give me an instant message instead He stretched my faith and my life and is still doing so now. So much is changing in my life, if I like it or not is not the point - the fact that God is maturing me for the future well that's what is important and what I want. I ask God and wait - He answers yet in His own way - tough love but the best love!

Tuesday, July 19, 2005

600 pennies


So much time with so much to do! I'm going to Poland in 10days! It's beginning to get exciting and much thought is been put in on my part about the amount of shopping I need to do because I am convinced I don't have enough or the right clothes. Also amongst all this shopping I'm still leading my busy life and somehow yet again I've been invited to another meal (which is tonight). Since we've finished school I've been out for a meal every week.
Oh yesterday I had my annual audition for my choir the CBSYC - it was my 7th audition. The normal routine for the auditions is you go in answer some questions like who your singing teacher is and what grade you're on and then you warm up, sing your prepared piece and then do a bit of aural tests which includes sight singing(the worst one). But this year they cut out all the aural tests and sight singing wooo it was great! And apparently many people had sung the song I sang- didn't know anyone knew it!(btw it was "the water is wide")

Anyway I'm sure your wondering why I wrote 600 pennies as the title - well I got fed up with all the pennies I had so I decided I'd count them and get it back in 'real money' - it was fun to find out that I had about 500 and then my mum gave me hers as well - so I'm just about to go out now and change them hehe- random but hey that's me!

oo check out- the new iPod Flea

Ooo and if you think you can try and answer some of these bible questions- if you complete it you get a free t-shirt - I got mine but it took me about 30 attempts!

Wednesday, July 13, 2005

Symphony Hall


Oh my life, last night was AMAZING! Me, Luke and Sara sang in the senior choir where there were 32 of us with 600 junior school kids in the symphony hall. It was for the Youth Music week. And the senior choir wore youth music t-shirts most people had a lime green one but the soloists (like me) wore BIG white ones - it was like a tent! So for the concert I sang a duet for the opening song called 'One voice' and we had all these little kids that sang around me and the other soloist and we had to walk onto stage in pitch blackness and it was soo funny because we had lost 2 of the kids and everyone was waiting for us to get on to stage. A minute later they appeared and we got onto the stage- I adjusted my mic to my height and I knew it was on because it made a big noise when I moved it but when it got to the point of me singing and the big spotlight was on me - the microphone didn't work - oh well I still had the other solo to do lol!For the other solo I had to sing a verse and the end chorus of "let it be" - lucikly it wasn't me on my own singing the end chorus but I still had to sing down the microphone at the front and then at the very end my last note I had to sing was a top F all by myself which was fun haha!But I felt so much better after I got the solos out the way because then I could sing really loud and not worry about losing my voice!
At the end of the concert the audience shouted "encore, encore" so we sang the abba medley again and it was great cause everyone was dancing and smiling and nearly everyone in the audience were standing up and dancing along it was soo cool and there was a standing ovation at the end it was mint!

So that was the Symphony Hall - one of the biggest solos I've done but personally not the most important because I think the solos that I sing about God are the most blessing and it doesn't matter about the size of the crowd it's the amount of hearts that hear and get touched!

{Ps.If you wanna hear some of the songs we did listen to believe, ok and refuge was one we did at school}

Friday, July 08, 2005

School Summer concert


Last night was the schools summer concert. It was a really emotional time because for the first year it really affected us about the people leaving. The saddest was that the pianist who was like grade 8 and played any and every piece you wanted him to play was leaving - near the end of the concert me, Luke, Emily, Sara and amber sang a song that Emily wrote the lyrics to for the song "Almost here". He didn't expect it at all and he had recorded the backing track for us and didn't know what for. I'm sure we saw some tears and just before that song he played and SANG a song he wrote about leaving and me and Sara were in tears. A special night!

Well before all the tears I sang a song that I had written called "I want to fly high" which is about revival and thanking God and I had taught Bec how to play the piano part and she kindly did that for me so I could stand and sing because I had to go up to a top G twice. I felt like I was doing worship on stage - I couldn't see anything apart from the light around me and it just made me feel that God was surrounding me and I was like a light for God. I had put so much prayer into it before I sang - I really wanted people to have open hearts and minds and judging by the feedback I got after I think it went well. I felt so blessed after - like the feeling when you've done something good for God. I remember in the rehearsal that day that after I sung the song my whole body was shaking and I know I’ve never been so nervous that all of me has shaken before and it wasn't like I hadn't done a Christian song at school. Maybe it was the Holy Spirit as well!

I really wanna do more for God because He has already done so much for me!

Wednesday, July 06, 2005

Camping weekend + Eisteddfod


WOW I'm tired! Just had a reli long and exhausting weekend. To begin with I went camping with my church, rained for 2 days and then the sun shone a lot on the last day(Sunday)- we all picked up some marking either being a tan or a burn- I got a bit of both. So that was cool in it's own ways, I just spent time either talking, playing catch or some other weird games we could make up or playing with the toddlers. One of the annoying points was that my parents wouldn't let me practice driving-even when everyone had gone. They've let me in previous years but I suppose as they realise that I'm not messing around anymore and that I WILL be driving this year it kinda scares them because their youngest child is growing up - I'm 18 in 17months!!!Their stupid excuse is that the world isn't ready for me-haha!

Well anyway today and yesterday we(my choir the "City of Birmingham Symphony Youth chorus") did the Eisteddfod in Llangollen. It was an amazing experience where loads of people round the world meet and share music of their culture. A funny part was when we were walking round and got followed and squirted by this clown hehe we had to run because we were in uniform. Oh we heard Lesley Garrett rehearsing on the stage where we did our performance and wow she was amazing and apparently (I didn't see) Lesley Garrett walked passed us when we came off stage but we didn't see because we were looking at pictures of us from our performance- we made some right funny faces but it was proof that we put in expression and smiled! Hopefully we will get some pics soon so I'll have to show you!

Well I'm going to head to bed now because I've got a solo to do at school tomorrow in the summer concert. It's a Christian song - one of my compositions about wanting revival and being with God and thanking him for being so true and perfect. I reali want this song to come across and touch peoples hearts so I've got to get it right. Please pray that everyone will go away touched by Gods word and love and that people will have open hearts and minds. Thankyou xxx <><

Thursday, June 30, 2005

End of exam meal with a LIMO!




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What an amazing night! We had soo much fun and you don't need to be drunk to have fun. The people there were Me(in pink!), Luke, Jade, Nick, Emma and Rachel! We met at Jades and had loads of photos and then went in a limo for an hour. Lol! We had real loud music as we bombed it down broadstreet. The funniest part was when Rachel and Emma found loads of melted chocolate on the back of their skirts in the most inappropriate area lol! After that hilarious moment we got to the "outback" where we had the meal. It was so filling that we didn't have a dessert! But all in all it was a great night and we had so many laughs-friends are great!

Friday, June 24, 2005


PaRtY!


Wooooooooo yeh I've finished all my gcses now yay! I thought this day would never come hehe. At the end of my RS exam today I was bopping up and down on my chair and I got a few weird looks but I didn't care because I had finished and I know for ALL the exams that God was there with me. Honestly without God I wouldn't have coped and I would have run out the Maths exams crying bit God is sooo cool! I'm actually having quite and good and busy day today - I've had the exam and then I had to go and get changed to do a concert about an hour after and then this evening I'm going out for a meal with some mates because 3 of them had or are having bdays and to be happy about end of exams - I'm going to a meal each week for 3 weeks wooo a lot of food hehe oh well I can burn it off when I go for a bike ride or a run in the morning. I really want to go back swimming but I'm a bit self conscious at the moment because through the exams you don't get much exercise - Well my arm has had loads but you know what I mean.
I know God knows this but I just have to write on here that God is AMAZING; his timing is just at perfection I mean WOW! You know when you get a text and it's like been perfect timing and stuff well I've a lot of them and I mean more perfect then you can imagine it actually has made me cry. I'm so happy I really don't think I can express how happy I am to you guys, I'm so in love with God he has shown and taught me so much about his love through these exams and wow! People if you have no idea about this passion I have for God then please go and find it because WOW it feels great!
Speak later need to go and get ready hehe :D!

Wednesday, June 22, 2005

Weird dreams


Well only one exam left which is religious studies about the book of Luke, so that will be cool and then I'll have loads of time to myself and 6 concerts in the next month- wow that’s a lot of work.

Ok well recently I've been having some weird dreams - you know when you have had a dream and you remember it but when it gets to the point where you have to tell people you can't real remember that well. Well I've been having dreams that I've been able to remember quite well and have explained a lot but these dreams have so much depth to them which relate to me personally. I can't really say what the dreams were because they were things that won't happen but it's the way how I reacted to the people in the dream. So far I've had 2 dreams with people in it that I don't get along with and in the dream we sort out our differences and I wake up mentally feeling different towards that person as if everything that's happened between us don't matter anymore.
I really get a feeling that these dreams are from God and that, I don't know like things should or are going to change. Any thoughts people?

Tuesday, June 14, 2005

11 down 5 to go


Not long now till these exams are done with. I can then carry on with my life. For some reason I feel like I've put things on hold and instead of sharing God with other people like I use to do everyday at school, I've just been really personal and close to Him which has been amazing because I've seen the peace He has been putting into my life-Thanks God!
Well I've some AMAZING NEWS - I did an audition last week in this choir that I'm in and I passed and it means I can sing a solo at the SYMPHONY HALL in July YAY!And I just found out that the symphony hall seats 2000 people OML! Hehe I think this is one of the most biggest crowds I've sung a solo in front of. I've sung in front about a million people on tv and radio and stuff in my choir but on my own well that's different but cool!Appreciate the prayers guys woo hehe!

Thursday, June 09, 2005

Bee/wasp - what is it?


Bee/wasp - what is it?
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Well today I had a rest from revision and exams and chilled. Well later on Bec came from and we were chatting and then all of a sudden these two bees(?) (one was deff a bee but the other not too sure) came onto the window and were attached to each other. We were not sure what they were doing- being very dumb other thuoghts were: either stuck to each other because the one in the pic was trying to kick the other one off or the other one was having birth (forgetting the idea that they lay eggs) or one was being raped. After a while the bee flew away and the one in the pic stayed there and slowly tried to move his legs and just stayed still for a very very long time. Me and bec just sat there starring at it. Bec thought it had died, I said it was asleep. But we really couldn't work out if it was a bee or a wasp - any thoughts people?

Friday, June 03, 2005

Orange Juice


Orange Juice
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"Just finish it...why waste it"
I'll tell you that I didn't drink much before I started my gcse exams and now I have to have at least about 10glasses of orange juice each day. Lol! I have no idea why I am telling you this but I suppose that with my exams I've kinda put my life on hold a bit and try not to think too much about debating issues which always captivate me and my friends conversations.
Unfortunately I haven't been able to get much exercise at the moment because I'm always stuck in the house so I've picked up a really nasty cough which doesn't help me at all. As soon as these exams have finished I'm going to get outside lol and get some exercise woo!

Wednesday, June 01, 2005

Someones watching over me


I got a dvd the other day - a Hilary Duff film called "Raise your voice" and there was a song in it which seems to have a christian meaning and I just love the lyrics so here they are:

"Someone's Watching Over Me"

Found myself today
Oh I found myself and ran away
Something pulled me back
The voice of reason I forgot I had
All I know is you're not here to say
What you always used to say
But it's written in the sky tonight

So I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even if it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe
Someone's watching over me

Seen that ray of light
And it's shining on my destiny
Shining all the time
And I wont be afraid
To follow everywhere it's taking me
All I know is yesterday is gone
And right now I belong
To this moment to my dreams

So I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even if it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe
Someone's watching over me

It doesn't matter what people say
And it doesn't matter how long it takes
Believe in yourself and you'll fly high
And it only matters how true you are
Be true to yourself and follow your heart

So I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even if it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe
That I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even when it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe
That someone's watching over
Someone's watching over
Someone's watching over me

Someone's watching over me

Monday, May 30, 2005

Star wars


I know many people don't like star wars - many of my friends don't - but I love it!Lol and I'm sad enough to say that in one week I watched all the star wars film - in quite a random order:2,1,3,4,5,6 - after watching (which is amazing) I began to understand 4,5+6 a bit better which is always good lol. But last week when I was watching them I began to see such a strong Christian message in it, I kept thinking the film was made for Christians - which I don't think it is , just freaks like myself lol. If anyone watches them try and find the relevance it has to Christians -it's pretty funky hehe!
Anyway I'm really tryin' to avoid revising - did you know revising isn't fun, my mates won't know that cuz they don't revise -hehe lol only jking!Love ya!

Wednesday, May 25, 2005

Tryin' to have a life during exams


So far I've had French, Music and today I had English Literature. Music was actually kinda hard-even though I worked really hard I still found myself stuck on most of it-on the basis that I didn't understand the questions. Anyway today, English, not too bad to be honest, I still had to rush the ending and it got really messy and my arm seized up and I thought that if I went to straighten it it would break off.
Right - so tomorrow I'm going to revise hard for R.E because I have TWO of them on friday - how mean is that!My poor little arm!
So thats 3 hrs 30mins - that's 14 sides of A4! (I've worked out my average) - Well I'll catch up with you when I have something interesting to write - of course my life has stopped because of the exams - you see you're not allowed to have a life between May+July!

Wednesday, May 18, 2005

Dust!


Oml well today I had a French listening exam in the morning - which went alright - then I had the rest of the day to revise and I really wasn't in the mood to revise because I felt ill and I had done 8 hours over the pass 2 days (that's more work than I do in a month of school). So I decided to clean the house- and I mean CLEAN!As soon as I started I couldn't stop and I'll tell you I'm not a very tidy person- anyone who has been in my room will tell you. So I happily got out my new pledge duster that my mum had just brought me-oh she knows me so well *rolls eyes*!I then vacuumed(every room - even the porch), tidyed up the shoes and lined them up, then the revision books which were in every room of the house. Then I scrubbed the kitchen, unloaded the dishwasher and reloaded it. Folded clothes, hung clothes, fluffed pillows, re-vacuumed(because I wasn't convinced), emptied the vacuum+pulled out all the hairs that had got caught up inside.Got rid of clothes in my drawer that I didn't want anymore and tied back all the curtains.
The things we do to get out of revision! :P!

Tuesday, May 17, 2005

Study leave


Wow 2nd day of study leave and I feel ill and ready to give up- I have been working really hard. I've got an exam tomorrow - french! I haven't just been revising while being home alone - I've been a good little girl and helped out my mum by doing all the washing and ironing and putting them away. I like this independence I feel a little bit of freedom woo!Better not get carried away lol - I've got 6th form next year - oh well still feels good!If anyone wants to could they pray for me please because I don't want to let this cold get me down- thankyou!

Wednesday, May 11, 2005

Nearly time for exams!


Friends
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Wow I remember year 10 and Gcses seemed a lightyear away - can't believe they have come soo soon!This last week has been quite emotional and I seem to have more memories of this week than the last 2 years.Signing the leavers books has been good to and if no one noticed I put my website address in all of them - :D!We break up for study leave this friday and the amount of confusion we have had about what we are allowed to wear is unbelieveable!I'm really going to miss those people who are going to leave but most people are staying:)
Friends are an important part of life, put them first before boyfriends and newer friends because they are there for life!Love you all!

Sunday, May 01, 2005

Baptism on 30/04/05


Claire+Sara-collarge
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Claire and Sara and Kirsty got baptised yday-how cool! In the pic there is Claire and Sara my two best friends. The day was amazing and some of our non christian mates came and after the baptism we had a priase party and it was amazing- I don't think I have sweated so much lol. God bless ya girls- God is amazing and I'm sure you know that now!Love ya!! <><

Wednesday, April 27, 2005

Emotions


I'm going through the emotions at the moment. My whole body feels unbalanced and anything and everything could make me cry - part of being a teenage girl and part of going through exams. I was never as stressed and worked up when I did my mocks. Maybe because I'm realising that if I don't pass maths I'm going to have to do it AGAIN next year(I'm not dumb just not to bright). My idea is to take higher maths and then all I have to do is get 25 marks to pass compared to the intermediate where I have to get 50marks to pass. Please pray for me so I can revise loads and revise the things that is going to come up in the exams. Next year I want to spend my time developing my God given gifts - write some more worship songs, make another CD, run a youthgroup and start other things. I don't want to be stressing over maths- please I need to pass!!

Friday, April 15, 2005

Blessed


Everyday when I walk home from school, after spending all day with a sea of people when I've crossed over the other side of the road away from my friends I begin to think, mostly about God and the world He made. I always see the same little girl with her granddad and within a second I can see the love he had for her as he would hold her hand or give her some sweets and I see the peace that seems between them. I just think of God and the love He has for us and how I can see God’s love through the actions of the world. A friend said to me once,
The truth of God’s love is seen in many ways, that truth dawns as they look at the breath taking beauty of the earth. For others, it happens as they listen to beautiful music or gaze at a masterpiece of art. For some it can occur as they look at the miracle of a newborn baby or as they enjoy the company of a valued friend. There is just no limit to the number of ways God’s love can be perceived and received, but no-where is his love shown better than in Jesus. When we look at Jesus and see the love reflected in his life, nature and personality, we cannot fail to be amazed that God loves us ALL!

So take a moment in the times you have that are quiet to find out what touches your life and what you see God's love in...friends?flowers?forgiveness?

Monday, April 11, 2005

Pressure


Oml...how much work do I have to do to pass these stupid pointless GCSEs! Well they aren't really pointless just soo annoying. I've been thinking about nest year when I'm doing my AS's and how even though I will have to work hard there won't be loads of different things to learn. And I might get a job and start saving for my car being that my parents are paying for my lessons. Also I will be able to spend more time writing my songs and experiencing whatever God wants me to learn. Ooo went to choir just and I wore my "JCUK" t-shirt which stands for Jesus Christ United King. It was soo fun watching the expressions on my friends faces I was like yep its meant to say that. oo and I got the CD of 'Mahler 8' which my choir performed on hehe with Sir Simon Rattle.
Well I better be off and start working- Chemistry, English x2 and Maths tonight oh and French!:P

Saturday, April 02, 2005

AWWWESOMMMMMEEE!!!!


Oh my life what a Lord we have! He is soooo amazing, I was up till 2am in tears because he is soo miraculous. I don't know enough words to explain the heart-stirringness of God. My last post was about being away from God and feeling distant and that was me a few weeks ago but as I realised what I needed to do and wanted God more He became so real to me, as you can see! God just surprises you sometimes and you really aren't expecting it and it is at that moment when you think WOW He really does love me and He understands what I'm going through and he doesn't want me suffering, but sin is such a barrier between us and God. But Jesus came so we can be forgiven and as soon as we give ourlives back to God He gives us (in His own timing)the desires of our heart! He knows best for my life and if I didn't have this relationship with God and I don't know where I'd be!
If you don't have that deep relationship with God as you can see I have, go and search for Him because He is longing to be close to you - it's our choice!

Thursday, March 31, 2005

A wavering thought


There are times in life when we, Christians, feel separated from God. Each day goes by and we may pray for world peace and for others but never notice ourselves. But we still carry on each day with an upset and sadness that we cannot explain, hoping it will just go passed and you’ll feel normal again. After a while we’ll begin to notice that it won’t just go away and we need God to sort it out. So we start to believe that it we just ask God to help us in a quick prayer it will all go away and we’ll be jumping around on fire for God again. But through experience I’ve found that that isn’t true. To be on fire again you have to WANT God and mean what you say and act upon it to. You have to get out of the comfort zones, pull out your bible, reach your hands in the air and truly give your heart back to God and repent and as you pray, spend time listening to what God is teaching you. Through this act of faith and belief you will be alive in God again and the blockage you had before will be gone because of the great gift of Jesus Christ who died on the cross and rose again to join us with our heavenly Father.

Saturday, March 26, 2005

Jesus - the real meaning to Easter


Jesus - the real meaning to Easter
Originally uploaded by messyessy76.

Want to know something- Easter isn't about eggs and bunnies it's about something real and amazing! The death of God's son, Jesus, so WE can be forgiven and have eternal life! How AMAZING is that, Jesus died on the cross for all our sins! He opened the door, made the bridge so we can have a greater relationship with God! He truely loves us!

Friday, March 25, 2005

Jesus and the Last supper


Jesus and the Last supper
Originally uploaded by messyessy76.

Today is Good friday!Most people wonder why thay call it goodfriday because it's the day when Jesus was killed on a cross. To christians though it's a day that we remember that Jesus died for OUR sins. This time shouldn't just be for christians it's for everyone becuase He also died for YOU!

Tuesday, March 22, 2005

Singing with the soul


There is a song I'm doing at choir called softly and everytime I sing it it makes me cry. Here are the lyrics:

Softly, I will leave you softly
For my heart would break if you should wake and see me go,
So I leave you softly, long before you miss me,
Long before your arms can beg me stay for one more hour,
For more day,
After all the years, I can't bear the tears to fall,
so softly, as I leave you there,
as I leave you there,
as I leave you there.

Wednesday, March 16, 2005

"Offering"


I love this song, we sang it at re:fine on sunday and it is amazing!here are the lyrics!

Magnificent Holy Father
I stand in awe of all I see
Of all the things You have created
But still You choose to think of me

Who am I that You should suffer
Your very life to set me free
The only thing that I can give You
Is the life You gave to me

(Chorus)
This is my offering, dear Lord
This is my offering to You, God
And I will give You my life
For it's all I have to give
Because You gave Your life for me

I stand before You at this alter
So many have given You more
I may not have much I can offer
Yet what I have is truly Yours

(Chorus)
This is my offering...

Drama exam!


Oh my life, tomorrow I've got my gcse drama exam when the examiner comes in and grades you. I'm really quite nervous and today we had to perform it in front of the year 10s! One thing about being nervous is that it will work to my advantage because I have to be shakey and upset through the play. I'll just have to think of an F and I'll start crying!but me and my friends worked out that an E is for excellent, an F is for fantastic, a D is for darn good. So we can't really fail hehe!

Thursday, March 10, 2005

I am blessed


Today i recieved an email from my sister and it said I hope this blesses you. I clicked on the link and read the page and everyword on it blessed me and I could see how lucky I am and how sad I felt for others. Want to read it?click here!
What do you guys think?

Wednesday, March 09, 2005

Exams


Sorry I'm not writing much at the moment. I've got my gcse mocks and I've been trying to work hard for them. I know they are only mocks but I'm still getting a bit stressed about them. Hopefully I will have calmed down by the actual thing.
I've got a busy weekend ahead of me; Friday is laserquest with the youth at the church, Saturday is shopping! and reunited and pauls party thing hehe, then Sunday I've got church and refine! Oooh the life of me haha!Suppose it will relax me and stuff. Well I better go and revise I've got French and another rs exam today- I had to rs exams yesterday aswell!xxx

Monday, February 28, 2005

Youth leaders conference


This weekend has been amazing. We (Me, Amy, Vicky and Jon) went to a young leaders conference so we could get some training for the stuff we do at church. It was really useful for me because I want to me a youth leader when I'm older. When we were there we made a group of friends, 4 main people -Dan, Tabby, Arron and Paria! They are really friendly and became friends with us despite the slight craziness we have haha!
During the weekend God spoke to me a lot. He taught me how to walk by faith every second, which I have been putting into practice. Also he gave me a vision and 3 pictures to go with it. The first pic was of 1000s of young people praising and giving their lives to God (I was either on the stage leading them or in the crowd, he decided to not tell me that slight detail.) Then the next was a circle(He said it was me) with 5 lines coming from it. Then the 3rd was a start button. I'm still chatting with God about it but it all sounds very exciting and scary.
Walking by faith...

Sunday, February 20, 2005

We did it!


24hour Famine
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Yesterday was so amazing! There weren't thousands of us taking part but the people that did managed to finish it and last 24 hours without food. We watched DVDs, took funny photos, played games, prayed and worshiped! I was so happy that it all worked because I was unsure that things were going to but everyone took part in things and we had such a great time. We all had our moments when we really needed food. And at the end we did a countdown and everyone ate minieggs. But for me I carried on till 30hours. I stopped eating food at 10:45 on Friday night and I woke up at 4:20am on Sunday with a violent tummy pains. I knew I had to make sure I finished. So I got myself some milk and a banana (I don't even like bananas) and waited for 25mins-in pain. Then I had my feast lol and the banana tasted nice. And now when I eat food I can taste every detail of it+I don't take any of it for granted. Thank you Lord for Food!

Friday, February 18, 2005

2moro- 24 hour FAMINE


I just got the info pack about it - because our group started late we are kinda behind and haven't had much time but it's ok because every penny counts. I keep thinking of all the things I need to organise and what needs to be done and what things we can do. I'm worried that a group of teenagers aren't going to want to listen to another teenager, it would be so much fun if they did. I've got a ll these ideas planned and I have to wake up early in the morning to get everything organise before people arrive.
Please pray that everything will be alright...."Everythings gonna be alright in Christ"

Saturday, February 12, 2005

Attcchhhoooo


With the upset I've had, my immune system has crashed and I now have the flu. I got it quite quickly, my mum told me to calm down otherwise I would get physically ill and she was right.
I got some sleep last night which isn't as nice as it sounds because for some of the night I was up coughing and getting annoyed with my blanket.
I've got a lot of revision to do but I'm finding it hard to get motivated at the moment so if anyone wouldn't mind but I could really do with some prayer.Thankyou.

Friday, February 11, 2005

Things happen for a reason


I've broken up from school now. We broke up on Thursday and today I've been hanging out in the church office (where I did my work experience). One thing I've been amazed at recently is how quickly your friends and family will be there helping you when life is down. For a really long time last night me and my parents were getting along really well together as they were pulling me through this upsetting situation. I don't want to explain what the situation is because it's not a place to say it but I read my bible and God kept telling me that He knew the plans for my life and I just have to trust in Him. And that is what I'm going to do - I'm still upset but I know if I stay with God I will be ok and He will look after me.

Valleys!

Wednesday, February 02, 2005

24 hour famine


The advantages of freeview have given me the opportunity to listen to premier radio which is a Christian radio station. Me and Luke listen every morning before we go to school. I've been hearing recently on it about a '24 hour famine' and how its a fundraising event to raise money for orphans in other countries. Poverty kills 30000 children each day...thats 3 children each second. Imagine if all your friends and family died each second, you would be alone. And this is actually true for a lot of people. SO when I heard about it, it didn't leave my mind until I found out more. I asked a few of my friends if they would be interested and they said they would be and I'm hoping that more people will be. I've already registered for it and sent off for an information pack. The event is on the 18th- 20th of February, so I don't have much time to get everyone prepared but I'm praying that God will help us...I know he will! If you have a group spread the word and tell them.. I'm sure you'll have enough time, just don't wait around for answers if you want to do it, go for it!One person can make a difference!Well I'm asking for your prayers and support please, thankyou and God bless xxx

Monday, January 31, 2005

Make poverty history


I'm taking the advice from my bro Matt and I've gone and brought a 'make poverty history' band. I brought it from oxfam at the weekend and my mate Jade came with me and brought one to, it was pretty cool! And i felt proud of myself for buying one...so i suggest you guys who havent got one yet to go and get one. You can get them online or you can go into your nearest oxfam store and purchase one there.

Sunday, January 23, 2005

After the Wedding...


Inside the car!
Originally uploaded by messyessy76.

Wow the wedding was amazing...and it seemed to go really quickly. It looked like they enjoyed themselves and after the Dj was told to put some decent music on everyone was up the front dancing. The first dance was really sweet aswell and I couldn't stop thinking about when I get married! Congratulations Tim and Kim and thankyou, SIS! for letting me be your bridesmaid...I didn't fall over hehe!



The Siblings
Originally uploaded by messyessy76.



Thursday, January 20, 2005

Wedding!

Not long now till my brother gets married, Saturday! And I've been reducing my intake on chocolate so I can fit in my dress, don't worry I can-at the mo, hehe! It all starts from tomorrow- I'm having my hair cut and then I'm sleeping over at Kims (bride) with Alex (other bridesmaid) and well I'm not sure what we will be doing, practicing walking, makeup and hair! Then in the morning we will get ready and at 3 the wedding begins and I'm the first one to walk down the isle ahh! Hope I don't fall over. Then after the wedding I suppose we will be going over to this other place for the reception where some of my mates will be. I'm so excited, I don't often get a chance to wear a dress hehe! I'll post some pics up on here of the wedding and you'll be able to see my BIG smile lol!

Sunday, January 09, 2005

Hen party - Me, Kim, Alex


Hen party - Me, Kim, Alex
Originally uploaded by messyessy76.

Last night I went on my sister-in-law to be hen party (shes the one sitting in the middle). We went to this restaurant in Birmingham called - Las Iguanas - it was mexican food, very spicy! Bec also came with us and we had a right laugh and Kim had to wear the devil horn veil, a badge that falshes which said 'Bride to be' and this garter which she put on the outside of her trousers LOL and Alex wore the other one!


Saturday, January 01, 2005

Front cover of my CD!


Front cover of my CD!
Originally uploaded by messyessy76.

Happy new year people! Now it's the new year my picture programme will let me upload some more pics (cause i used all my space for last month) so I'll leave you with the front cover od my new/first CD which i designed myself - God bless xxx