Cancelled Lectures

Even after the school experience, there is still excitement when you hear that a lesson has been cancelled. I'm really happy this week though because I've had like 4 lectures taken out of my week. So my next lecture won't be until next wednesday. This has given me a choice of how to spend my time. I could choose to be good and get lots of work done or I could be a bit lazy and just chill hehe hmm.

I was even told last night that a 2000 word assignment has been pushed back as well. For some reason I feel like all these delays of work will pile up into a stressful time after easter. Maybe I want to keep ahead of my work.

On the other hand, there are 24days til Easter...this will be my first Easter away from home. When I was younger my parents would invent an easter egg hunt for me. They would give me a clue with each egg so I could find the next. I would spend Sunday morning before church running round the house....good times.

What makes me smile...

...is when I look outside and all I see is a bright blue sky with random white fluffy clouds floating around.

Last night it had pelted it down with rain.
It reminds me that when there is a storm and when everything seems dark and bad, that by the end of it the sun (Son) rises and shines with awesome brightness and beauty. All the bad is gone and all we see is good. :)

Wanders

I find that I quite enjoy going for wanders on my own. Just me and my thoughts. Feels like I'm in my own little world like some bubble. Today I needed to go in town but by the time I got into town I stood there thinking why did I come in again? So I just kept walking, seeing if I would get inspired.
There is no purpose to this blog, I'm just in a thoughtful mood.
I'm going to go play my guitar now and see if I can sing what's in my head. To be honest, I don't really know what I'm thinking about. One thing I know about myself is that I seem to get affected "emotionally" before I work out the problem. Maybe there is no problem...who knows.

Imitating parental behaviour

I found myself, as I was sitting with my flatmates sharing a lovely meal together, that I was saying comments I heard as I grew up.

"What pudding do people want" thought process *there won't be enough if we all have crumble*.

"Have you finished with the ice cream?" thought process *I'll put it away so it doesn't melt*.

"Who wants to finish the rest of the custard" thought process *because I want some more* haha.

Do we become our parents?

Valentines

It's the day that most single people dread and couples get stressed about lol.
Well as a single girl in this world I wasn't too fussed about it being Valentines because I know that one day I'll have someone special. I don't want it to be like a waiting game for that person though but I know that when I have someone it'll be worth all the times of feeling lonely.

However, today I had a lovely surprise. My parents had sent me a card just saying that they were thinking of me and that they loved me. The thought meant so much to me and I want to say thank you to them on here as well as a phone call later hehe.
I guess that's what people want on Valentines, just to know that someone is thinking of them. Inside the card it said "God thinks of you all the time". What could make you smile more :)

So I'm happy today, despite the moody people that are around and the annoying loved up people and the stupid woman who dug herself in a hole when she asked me and my friend if we had valentine day cards. She then seemed disappointed that we hadn't, where we were completely happy that our friends and family loved us.

So Happy Valentines Day...remember that if you don't feel loved by the people around you, that there is a God in heaven who is thinking just of you and who loved you so much that He sent His only Son, Jesus, to die on a cross for you!

Procrastination

Since arriving at Uni, I've come to use this word frequently through my days here. For people that aren't sure what it means, it is merely a type of avoidance behaviour. For example, avoiding tasks or decisions, that may cause anxiety or stress. However, for a person who gets into the habit of procrastination they find that they over exaggerate in their mind about their inability to complete or start a task. The word itself comes from the Latin word procrastinatus: pro- (forward) and crastinus (of tomorrow).

I realised quite consciously that looking up the meaning of procrastination and the history, and psychological meanings behind it, that it was also another procrastination activity for me to do, avoiding the weighty amount of assignments I have.
...I have decided to make another label for my posts: "Procrastination"

Dancing like a child...

I'll admit it, I dance around like a kid in my room. I love it. Haha. ok, you might think I'm weird but it stops me from building a wall of inhibitions of a "grown up" heart and spirit. (That prob don't make sense lol) but in other words, I like and want to keep my child like spirit :) Call me weird but thats me...unique :) hehe :)

Shrove Tuesday

In other words...pancake day :)
I must admit, I'm a lover for pancakes and today in my Uni world, me and my flat mates are going to spend time together making and eating pancakes. A simple task but a time where relationships can be built...a time of fellowship.

However, this means that tomorrow is Ash Wednesday, the beginning of Lent. This year I've thought and prayer hard about giving up something for Lent. However, I'm not just merely giving something up, I'm spending this period to transform my heart and hopefully it will shape my character. My aim for Lent is to find inner beauty. I'm not going to go in to detail with how I intend to do this but part of it is discovering my femininity. The serving and loving heart of a woman of Christ. But I know I won't be able to do this in my own strength, but in God's alone.

Have you thought about how you could use this season to transform your heart and life?

Got a HOUSE!

Oh my word! I'm so excited. We've just been looking around a couple of houses and we were beginning to worry because honestly they were like dives lol. Anyway we came up to this house and we weren't feeling optimistic but I said come on guys lets see what it's like inside and oh my word! It was amazing. We fell in love with it straight away. We can get it for real cheap with bills all included! Then to make it even better, the land lady said she went to the same church as me and my other house mate, we were gob smacked. Come on, if that's not a reasurrance from God then what is.

Yayyyyyyyy! :)

Housing!

For the past 10 hours I've been sporadically refreshing the housing list page from my University. It's like a chase, who can be the first to the nicest houses and can place there money down on the table. I'm literally ready to run, trainers by my side and a cheque book in my bag. Ok, I'm probably a little too worried about this but to be fair if we get a nice place, I might be living there for the next couple of years, maybe even after University.
I guess at the end of the day it all comes down to God's amazing plan, which may be different from my own...we'll see :)