Emotions

I'm going through the emotions at the moment. My whole body feels unbalanced and anything and everything could make me cry - part of being a teenage girl and part of going through exams. I was never as stressed and worked up when I did my mocks. Maybe because I'm realising that if I don't pass maths I'm going to have to do it AGAIN next year(I'm not dumb just not to bright). My idea is to take higher maths and then all I have to do is get 25 marks to pass compared to the intermediate where I have to get 50marks to pass. Please pray for me so I can revise loads and revise the things that is going to come up in the exams. Next year I want to spend my time developing my God given gifts - write some more worship songs, make another CD, run a youthgroup and start other things. I don't want to be stressing over maths- please I need to pass!!

Blessed

Everyday when I walk home from school, after spending all day with a sea of people when I've crossed over the other side of the road away from my friends I begin to think, mostly about God and the world He made. I always see the same little girl with her granddad and within a second I can see the love he had for her as he would hold her hand or give her some sweets and I see the peace that seems between them. I just think of God and the love He has for us and how I can see God’s love through the actions of the world. A friend said to me once,

The truth of God’s love is seen in many ways, that truth dawns as they look at the breath taking beauty of the earth. For others, it happens as they listen to beautiful music or gaze at a masterpiece of art. For some it can occur as they look at the miracle of a newborn baby or as they enjoy the company of a valued friend. There is just no limit to the number of ways God’s love can be perceived and received, but no-where is his love shown better than in Jesus. When we look at Jesus and see the love reflected in his life, nature and personality, we cannot fail to be amazed that God loves us ALL!

So take a moment in the times you have that are quiet to find out what touches your life and what you see God's love in...friends?flowers?forgiveness?

Pressure

Oml...how much work do I have to do to pass these stupid pointless GCSEs! Well they aren't really pointless just soo annoying. I've been thinking about nest year when I'm doing my AS's and how even though I will have to work hard there won't be loads of different things to learn. And I might get a job and start saving for my car being that my parents are paying for my lessons. Also I will be able to spend more time writing my songs and experiencing whatever God wants me to learn. Ooo went to choir just and I wore my "JCUK" t-shirt which stands for Jesus Christ United King. It was soo fun watching the expressions on my friends faces I was like yep its meant to say that. oo and I got the CD of 'Mahler 8' which my choir performed on hehe with Sir Simon Rattle.
Well I better be off and start working- Chemistry, English x2 and Maths tonight oh and French!:P

AWWWESOMMMMMEEE!!!!

Oh my life what a Lord we have! He is soooo amazing, I was up till 2am in tears because he is soo miraculous. I don't know enough words to explain the heart-stirringness of God. My last post was about being away from God and feeling distant and that was me a few weeks ago but as I realised what I needed to do and wanted God more He became so real to me, as you can see! God just surprises you sometimes and you really aren't expecting it and it is at that moment when you think WOW He really does love me and He understands what I'm going through and he doesn't want me suffering, but sin is such a barrier between us and God. But Jesus came so we can be forgiven and as soon as we give ourlives back to God He gives us (in His own timing)the desires of our heart! He knows best for my life and if I didn't have this relationship with God and I don't know where I'd be!
If you don't have that deep relationship with God as you can see I have, go and search for Him because He is longing to be close to you - it's our choice!