Friends

They are the best people to keep, don't let love come in the way because in the end they will still be there for you. Friends help and support us and we need to remember how special they are, even if we do fall out and have our differences.
You are my friends and the greatest love a person can have for his friends is to give his life to them. This is what Jesus did for us. We need to remember that if our friends ever do leave us for someone that we need to always be there for them and not fall out with them, if you get me.

Jesus weirdo, matt?

On my phone I've got a logo on it and it says 'Jesus freak' and I'm proud of it, I like to be known as different because we are made different. I mean how cool is it not to be like anyone else, to be the one who isn't a 'clone'. I don't think I know anyone who is a 'clone' but if I did meet anyone like it I would probably tell them to get a life. So has anyone given up anything for lent, I haven't I can never keep it hehe, it lasts for about a week and then it's gone out the window.

Why?

I looked up 'why' in the dictionary and it said 'for what reason of purpose'. I seem to be saying 'why' a lot, but is there a need for it. Because really we will find out the answer one day. I've always said that everything happens for a reason and with God the reasons always good. It seems to be a sentence that I remember which reassures me and comforts me when I question a lot. People that know me knows that I can be a bit nosy sometimes hehe I like to ask questions and I like to know things so nothing is in shade. So when it gets to God I question him because we only get to see a bit of the jigsaw, we only have a few pieces to work with but he knows the whole picture.
I've been hearing lately about all the bad things that are happening in my area. When you hear it on the news from places in the world it doesn't really hit you as hard, but when things happen near you it makes you think. 'Rachel's Tear's' (a book I'm reading) talks a lot about the shootings that happened in 1999 at columbine school (in America). So when I hear about it near to be it really seems to hit hard, it is kinda scary. Is the time described in revelation?

Youth Alpha

Thursday and Friday I went on a youth alpha conference with my youthworker and friends. Those two days were amazing, we did worship with Tim Hughes and one of the speakers was Nicky Gumble. The talking was great, me and my group learnt loads and the worship was even better. The most scariest part of the whole thing was when I had to talk in front of everyone on the stage, only 800 people from around the world. Ok well what happened was that Nicky said at the end of his little talk before the break was that if anyone became a Christian through youth alpha can they meet me during the break. Luke my friend became Christian through it so he went down with a few mates to go and speak to him, I would of gone down to but at the time someone was praying for me. Anyway when he came back he told me that I had to go back down with them at 6:15 to talk to him because I invited Luke to the course. So when we went back down, there were 8 other people, Nicky told us that we all had to do an interview with him on stage. I was like what! And Luke went into a little moody thing and was saying no I'm not doing it I'm not talking in front of all those people. So by the end of it I had to speak for him and say how he became a Christian. And oh my life it was scary, there were TV's everywhere so you could see yourself and we were like the youngest there. And it was really funny because when he interviewed me I turned all nervous and was saying things like 'it was so like amazing and so cool'. Hehe, but after that when we were going home we popped into a shop to get some food and these people that also went to the conference came up to s and said wow you really touched the church in there you guys are so amazing. It was really cool when he said that. I've now come back and I just want to do loads and talk loads. As my parents experienced last night when I came back and I couldn't stop talking and when I went back into their room at midnight with still more to say. My parents think I'm like my brother Matt, and they said that if we were both on stage talking that it would never stop hehe. What can I do now....talk!

Candy and Floss

Candy and Floss are my other Guinea pigs. At the moment I've got candy out she would like to say: dcdddddddddddddddddddhhhhhhhhhhhdddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddd c : thats all she got to say. Floss wants to say: b v kkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkx, mmx hhhhhh : hehe. Are there any animals that would like to comment on that.
I've been doin home work all day today, how fun. I'm really excited about tomorrow because I'm going to london with my youth group to this Alpha for Youth conference so we can train to be youth alpha leaders. But I have to leave my house at 5am tomorrow :(

The peak has now turned into a pit

Today I went to feed my guinea pigs after my mum and dad had left the house, so I was by myself apart from my mate who came round. But I found that my mum had already fed them. So I had a look at them and I found my favourite guinea pig had died :( His name is Squeak and I used to have a rabbit called Bubble but she died two years ago. Squeak was only 4 years old and I knew he was going to die soon but it shocked me today. I've had a good cry though and I'm gonna get all my pictures and make a collage. Squeak has even written on my blog.

Wednesday, July 30, 2003
Ahhhh im getting stressed good job my baby guinea pig is here hehe! Say hello Squeak (thats his name) vjjjjjjjjjjjjlkkjuuuuuuuuuullllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllouuhjo isn't my baby clever. I don't know what language thats in hehe!
Bye bye Squeak!

Which book of the bible are you?

Wow, there's a link below, I'm psalms and this quiz isn't just for christians, and what it says about me is soooo unbelieveably true, check it out:


You are Psalms.


Which book of the Bible are you?
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Chores

Last night me and my mum organised a rota of jobs so I could earn some money. I want a proper but 1. I'm not old enough to get a real job 2.I don't have time to do outside work 3. Newspaper people won't get back to me, my brother thinks it's because I'm at girl (sexist).
Today I've done a load of jobs and I've tidied and re-arranged my bedroom, I love changing my room around because it looks new and better. It reminds me of life, sometimes we have to change the way we act so our personalities can feel new and better. (how did I get that from tiding a room I do not know)

Peeeak

I feel like my life at the moment is on a peak, a low peak but at least I'm not in a valley. I read last night in 'Rachel's Tears' that it's good to question God because it helps us to build a deeper relationship with God because if you ask questions hopefully God will answer them. And doing that our relationship deepens. Am I right, or did I misinterpret that wrong?

The day has arrived

I was totally sure that I wasn't going to get any valentines cards until 12:30 when a really cute card came. It's pink :) and it's a bubblegum card and it says 'secret admirer' and inside it has a ?. I really don't know who it is from but it's soo cute though. Don't worry if you don't get any this year you'll prob get 20 next. Did anyone do any cute, cool, soppy stuff today?

Ill and alone

At the moment I could be over at my friends having a big cool sleepover but I'm really tired as it is because I came home at 1 this morning, I had a big shopping trip in London :)
So, instead I'm by myself listening to music, having a sing a long, playing on my computer and eating cookies.
Last night I had a dream, which wasn't nice. All my friends told me how much they didn't like me and it really upset and I was crying loads in the dream and it felt sooo real. Then when I woke up it felt like as if I had actually been crying loads. But the dream mad me think, do all my friends like me :(

Earlier when I was getting annoyed about valentines day I decided to send some special valentine emails, just friendly ones though. This kinda cheered me up because my friends started emailing me back saying aww thnx and wow I feel special. And I was thinking well you are, all my friends are special to me and they are all special, each one of them!

Valentines day

I think this is the first time in about 10 years when I haven't sent a valentines card, even though it is a pointless day when people spend TOO much money (I think that person knows who they are) but really its all a bit of fun. The only harm about it is that when people don't get any or they have no one to send one to. That's me twice this year. What do others think.......

Psalm 23

The LORD is my shepherd,
I shall not want;
he makes me lie down in green pastures.
He leads me beside still waters;
he restores my soul.
He leads me in paths of righteousness for his name's sake.
Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death,
I fear no evil; for thou art with me;
thy rod and thy staff, they comfort me.
Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of my enemies;
thou anointest my head with oil, my cup overflows.
Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life;
and I shall dwell in the house of the LORD for ever.

Valleys

Because I've been having a bad time recently my friend told me that I was in the valley and that God is guiding me through it. So today in science I wrote another poem:

In the valley, I walk,
Where there is no light,
I don't know where to go,
Is this the night?
Who is guiding me?
Is anyone there?
In the mist of night,
Who would care?

I think Matt was right what he said about my poems, I don't have to understand them but it may touch people and I hope they do.

Poem

'Rachel's Tear's' is such a good book, I'm still reading it sorry, and in her journal that she had, she used to write poems in it. So today I decided to write a poem in science. This is how it goes, its not very good, but I did it in 10 minutes:

Heaven is above,
And hell is below,
But where am I,
I do not know.
The world is turning,
The earth is there,
But does anyone really
actually care.
I want to care,
I want to know,
The truth of life,
above and below!

I'm still trying to think of what it could mean, what do you think it means, does anyone else feel the same?

Food

What is your favourite food? Have you ever tried tuna and popcorn sandwich its really nice but the popcorn has to be toffee flavour!

This is who I am!

I am Princess, a daughter of the King
I am beautiful, a child of God
I am what l am, by the grace of God
I am a friend of Jesus, because he chose me.
I am chosen and appointed, to live for Christ
This is who l am, with God
Inside me my light is on for all to see,
Because l know who l am, may others see it too.

By Gillian Lloyd

I found this on a site called soul sista which is connected to Soul Survivor!

Why?

You know when you have those days and you just can't be bothered, well today is mine and I have French coursework and 3 essays to write why?!
At the moment I feel like I'm walking on one of those tightropes that you find at the circus and if anyone gets in my way I'll just fall off. I just don't feel secure. Also I have a sore throat which does not help with all the singing I've gotta do, I had to sing at church today and I have a concert on Tuesday why why why?
Because I keep saying 'why' it reminds me of a song that Hilary Duff sings called 'why not' the beginning of the song goes:

You think you're going nowhere
When you're walking down the street
Acting like you just don't care
When life could be so sweet
Why you wanna be like that
As if there's nothing new
You're not fooling no one
You're not even fooling you

So walk a little slower
And open up your eyes
Sometimes it's so hard to see
The good things passing by
There may never be a sign
No flashing neon light
Telling you to make your move
Or when the time is right

Why not...Take a crazy chance
Why not...Do a crazy dance
If you lose the moment
You might lose a lot
So why not, why not


Even though she is talking about a boy, it still makes me think!

Where is the path?

My life seems to be at a low, why can't everything be perfect?Why do bad things happen?Why does life sometimes totally suck?
I've been questioning life a lot recently!
Today I was walking home, and since I was little I always walked down that grey streak that goes down the sidewalk. And as I was walking down it I found myself being lead off towards the road, I found it hard to stay on the path. It then made me realize that life can be hard and we may find ourselves being lead off the path and towards danger. But to help us get back on to the path we have to asked God to guide and forgive us and he will lead us on.

Rachel's Tears

On Saturday I brought a book from Wesley Owen called 'Rachels tears' The book is about a girl called Rachel who was killed in the shootings that were held at columbine high school on April 20th 1999. The book explains Rachel's great passion for God and her deep spirtitual life that she secretly had. Her parents didn't realise how spirtitual she was until they found her journals several months after she was killed. The journals dated back to two years before the shootings and if you read them you could see how Rachel knew in her heart that her life was short. She wrote poems, prayers and drew pictures which all showed us how close she was to God. I've only read about 30 pages and I've cried about 3 times, it's a very emotional true story.